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[youngmum2b]

Arhh pregnancy is ment to be enjoyable n the best thing thats ever happened to me.

So why do i feel so depressed all the time, nothing i do or try seems to make any difference.
I've tried talking to my gp, mw even my consultant n they all say the same thing its only another few weeks but i dont think i can deal with any more of these thoughts. I feel so guilty n evil for just thinking them yet no-one seems willing to help get rid of them.

 

[lauram_92]

you can speak to me if you want? i get quite hormonal at times and think what is the point? other times i am as happy as a kite.. "/

 

[youngmum2b]

Thanks hun i've managed to keep it under control for the last 5 months but i cant anymore, its got to the point that im having thoughts of hurting myself to end this pregnancy, dont get me wrong i love my son with all my heart n id never do anything to hurt him hence why i've contantly askd for help dealing with it.

Im sittn here crying whilst writing this cos i know its only guna get worse until i start feeling better (though out this pregnancy i've been ill or been told to rest cos of bleeding) i hate feeling like im in the way or people thinking im just being lazy.

 

[lauram_92]

have you got facebook? cause i can give you a link to my account and you can private mail me? it's a bit more private.. or i have msn too..

 

[Desi's_lost]

You can PM anytime you'd like..I really cant believe they didnt recommend a therapist for you to help you work through the feelings. You shouldn't be feeling like that and to me it sounds like those feelings would but you at high risk for post partum depression.

 

[aafscsweetie]

Im so sorry babe. My hormones are really throwing me out of line too, and I've gotten pretty depressed some days. But really those are not thoughts that should go unnoticed- did you tell your MW/doc about them?? Maybe they didn't understand the severity of the situation. They shouldn't have dismissed you from the beginning, obviously, but this is really something that you should talk to your MW or dr about more- and if they have ignored you in the past then go to a different doctor!

 

[youngmum2b]

You can PM anytime you'd like..I really cant believe they didnt recommend a therapist for you to help you work through the feelings. You shouldn't be feeling like that and to me it sounds like those feelings would but you at high risk for post partum depression.

Thats been my argument, but so far they've only come back with well u found a way of dealing with them before so whats different now.
Its got to the point now that i dont even see the point in telling them how im feeling when they ask now, but it shouldnt be like this n i know i shouldnt feel like this which makes me feel worse.

 

[Sophiiie]

it's not right that they're just pushing your feelings to one side, is there any way that you can ask to see a different doctor? x

 

[Desi's_lost]

Do you have to go through your doctors to get a therapist? If you dont, I would contact one privately. I think they are being unethical, denying your requests for help. Don't feel bad for having those feelings! Its not your fault. You have every reason to be proud of yourself, seeking help is the right thing to do.

 

[~RedLily~]

I would definitely change your doctor. It sounds like you may have PREnatal depression in which case they shouldn't just be ignoring you.

 

[youngmum2b]

I've looked into seeing a therapist privatly n theres no way im guna be able to afford it.
I've changed my doctor 4 times n theres only 6 doctors in the surgery n im already seeing the only mw that seems to give a crap, i've gotten her to refer me hundreds of times yet i see a doctor n get told i dont need to be referred as theres nothing wrong, i dont understand how they can say thay the constant thought of self harm is in the catagory of nothing wrong.

 

[Desi's_lost]

As you're in the UK..i'm probably no help. Here we have something called Youth and Family Services and they have a sliding pay scale. Your/you families income is determined and based on the number of people in your house, you pay a certain low fee. I wonder if you guys have something similar?