Kate isnt premature, so i know technically this shouldnt be here, but i figured that you girls would be the only ones to understand having a baby in SCBU.
Kate will be 2 weeks tomorrow, and has been in SCBU since she was 16minutes old. I never got to hold her until she was 5 days old, and shes likely to be there another week.
Im missing her sooooo much . I feel a real ache for her. When im at the hospital, and holding her i could stay all day and cuddle her and take in everything about her. Then i have to go home....
Some of her care has been below standard and its made it harder to leave her. Im just lost. We never could have imagined we would be in this situation because she was a term baby. But when she was born she struggled to breath. She was navy blue and her Sats were 45%. They diagnosed her as having Surfactant Deficient Respiratory Distress Syndrome. And she was ventilated for 5 days. Its been a night mare, an absolutely awful 2 weeks.
I also feel i cant face anyone. Family (DHs) and teachers/parents at J's school. Because ill have to talk about it and i just cant bare to.
Im also feeling a bit detached, the delay in bringing her home from being pregnant - it just feels wrong. I cant described it.
I just needed to write it down, to people who have some idea of how hard it is.
Kate will be 2 weeks tomorrow, and has been in SCBU since she was 16minutes old. I never got to hold her until she was 5 days old, and shes likely to be there another week.
Im missing her sooooo much . I feel a real ache for her. When im at the hospital, and holding her i could stay all day and cuddle her and take in everything about her. Then i have to go home....
Some of her care has been below standard and its made it harder to leave her. Im just lost. We never could have imagined we would be in this situation because she was a term baby. But when she was born she struggled to breath. She was navy blue and her Sats were 45%. They diagnosed her as having Surfactant Deficient Respiratory Distress Syndrome. And she was ventilated for 5 days. Its been a night mare, an absolutely awful 2 weeks.
I also feel i cant face anyone. Family (DHs) and teachers/parents at J's school. Because ill have to talk about it and i just cant bare to.
Im also feeling a bit detached, the delay in bringing her home from being pregnant - it just feels wrong. I cant described it.
I just needed to write it down, to people who have some idea of how hard it is.