baby dust please :( - updated thanx for trying :(

[louley]

today i woke up n just felt different, boobs were no longer painful n felt softer again, didnt have any heartburn overnight n even had a normal poo (had been terribly constipated), anyway, decided not too worry, then this afternoon i used the loo after a nice relaxing bath (not too hot) i had pinkish blood on the loo paper.

went to the gp, who was a locum and basically told me to go away n not worry, me n hubby demanded an appt at the epu like we were given with our 2mc's and he's calling me again in the morning with an appt time.

ive had hardly any bleeding since, just a couple of spots and so far no cramps (although i didnt have any with the others either) and i dont know if my imagination but i think my boobs have started hurting again.

i know this could be normal but just felt like i needed to air this to people who know how it feels, blow all baby dust this way please
xxxx

 

[iprettii]

baby dust for you hun... Hopefully all will be well!!

 

[hb1]

Fxd for you - remember sypmtons can come and go - hope all is well in there

hx

 

[kanga]

f'xd all is well hun x

 

[louley]

thanks guys,
the scan is booked for tomoro morning, hate waiting.
tbh i feel like i know the result already, just dont feel it anymore, i knew id lost the others too, just feel empty, still spotting, but now its brown, some say this is better, but hasn't been before. they say each prgenancy is different, but mine have all followed the same pattern.

i cant stand the pain of it all, not the physical, the emotional, it kills me seeing DH hurt like this, wish there was something i could do, hate being useless.

going through the 'rage' at the moment, feeling bitter, i know you'll say we haven't even been told the outcome yet but, like im sure some of you will know, i can tell.

todays my birthday too, almost laughable in a sick kinda way, one i'll always remember eh.

 

[louley]

sorry to be such a downer

 

[KimmyB]

So so sorry to read this I know you know your body best but I'll keep everything crossed for you for tomorrow morning x

 

[Smiler79]

Hun
I am praying for you and really hope things turn out to be ok tomorrow. However I understand what you mean about the feeling where you just know. I felt like that when i had my miscarriage.

Thinking of youxxxx

 

[debgreasby]

Thinking of you x

 

[stay.positive]

FX louley. I hope it's nothing to worry about.

 

[ornahayes]

FX hun. I had spotting and similar pain to my last mc- but thankfully it's not the same and a scan proved me wrong. I really hope this is going to be the same for you.

Hope you have managed to have some rest and your OH has spoilt you rotten. Happy birthday xxx

 

[mislaww]

Fingers crossed for good news.

 

[MissMaternal]

Fingers crossed for you hun xx

 

[danielle1987]

fingers crossed everything is ok xx

 

[louley]

Im sorry to say it was as horrible as expected, bean only measured 5/6 weeks and no heartbeat found. ive got to go back next week but i know its only a formality.
Following the scan im bleeding heavily and cramping.
all a bit numb right now, was upset earlier but now just......numb.

Here the sensitive bit, has anyone had passed 'not sure what to call it' collected and tested?
think i might have my bean here in the outside world instead of safe in me.

 

[hb1]

So sorry for your loss

I never collected anything during my mc - they wouldn't have done anything for me being my 1st anyway.

Hope you get some answers

take care

hx

 

[danielle1987]

So sorry hunni, I no with my first mc, the hospital did ask me to keep the retained tissue (luckily everything come away together) i took it in and they took it away the only thing they did was tell me it was a complete miscarriage

So sorry your having to go through this. xx

 

[foxforce]

So sorry Louley lots of

Sorry you have to go through this again

I haven't collected lil bean but sure I mine in in a tissue, some people give them to epu to test for abnormalities?

Take good care of yourself and dh

 

[louley]

thank you for the quick replies.
the thought horrified me with my first two losses but this time i seemed to make the effort, now, sitting here writing this with possibly bean in a pee pot im not sure what to think....
anyway, i have put it in alittle tap water as thought some fluid would be best,cant take it anywhere till tomoro. guess i'll call EPU n ask.

Thank you for your kind thoughts

xxx

 

[mislaww]

I am so very sorry. Please take care of yourself.