baby expo meltdown:-/

[sugaplumx27]

OH on his own came across this event taking place in town for expecting moms and parents and young children. It was a big fair expo type thing, they had vendors from all sorts of baby shops, clothing, diapers, evetyhing you need up to toddlers, they were having a daddy diaper changing contest and a little pageant show for the little ones!

Ive been really freaking out about having a baby. Im happy and excited but terrified. Ive actually made myself sick with worry at times.

I had a bad morning, OH was really set on going so i agreed but once we got there i felt like i couldn't breathe. Panic mode set in and the more we looked around the more anxious i got.

They had raffles going on all sorts of gift baskets at each vendor and we put in for 2 when he realized i wasn't ok. He asked what was wrong but i didnt wanna talk. I wanted to leave. We hadnt been there 10 min. When we walked out he was mad because he felt so good about finding this on his own and i was miserable.

After an hour of driving around and yelling and finally explaining why i got so overwhelmed i felt so much better. We went to lunch and came home and now all i wanna do is go back and put in for more raffles! !!!


Am i just losing my s*** ? I feel so alone all the time. I look at other pregnant women and i so desperately want to feel as happy as they look...

I posted this in another thread, i just feel so alone. Like sometimes i feel awkward when prople say congrats, its hard for me to even say thank you. Everyone that knows is just over the moon happy for us and i dont feel that yet.

OH says i need to make pregnant friends because he thinks ive become very sheltered. That i havnt even told anyone besides a few old co workers who o dont see anymore and his coworkers. He hates that hes the only one i ever wanna talk to, hes more then happy to but thinks i really need to socialize more. Idk whats wrong with me, i always thought id be gushing to the world about this.

I AM happy. I AM excited. I want this baby SOOO bad. I just dont get why my head is acting so crazy ....

 

[britt0285]

Its okay. Its overwhelming at times. Im sure he understands. It happens to me too.

 

[AlwaysPraying]

Sounds quite typical to be honest. Its something that we think about our whole lives as women and then when it happens it's almost never as we expected. I felt very detached from my first pregnancy as if i was faking it or something. I was worse when baby was born. For some reason I felt like I wasnt a real mom like I was faking that too. I felt weird saying I had a son and thought people wouldn't beleive me. Or when I was out I worried people would think I was the babysitter. I'd see other moms and worry that I didn't feel like they looked.

My point is that it's pretty normal and were given time to adjust. Pregnant friends may really help to be honest. I joined a baby group to learn about delivery and made a few friends that way. We all felt the same so it really did help.

 

[sugaplumx27]

Detached is a good word. Thats how i feel too when people ask me about it, like im faking it and i feel like everyone "knows".

At the expo there was a woman who was asking the. lady all these serious questions about cloth diapers, a route ive known i wanted to go for awhile. Id never even heard of things she said and never thought to ask and it made me feel so unprepared and thats what set me off:-/

Ughhh!!! Im just glad someone understands and im not totally crazy

 

[sugaplumx27]

I signes up for parenting classes with OH, they were free and they give you a baby shower after 8 classes! Thought it would be a good place to meet people. They group the class based on due dates so everyone will be right around my time.

I appreciate your feedback ladies i wrote about this on another website and this woman just wrote "wow, don't listen to the bad thoughts in your head and you need serious psych help."

.....thanks lady.... im sure you're perfect.

 

[AlwaysPraying]

That's just some rude advise! Or maybe were both nuts?

Glad your going to join the class. Hopefully you'll find some people there. There's also pregnant excercize classes and yoga things like that too.

I dont know I'd hope a period of adjustment is normal. We lived our lives one way for so many years with this dream or thought of what pregnancy and parenthood would end up like. And once we are there nothing is ever as we thought it would be. So it takes time to accept and adjust to the new world.