Bad day today - just can't stop crying :(

[mrs_lukey]

Today has been crap. I'm on day 4 of my bleed from my latest MC and whilst I know that I can get through this I'm not sure how.

I'm trying to be strong and focus on the positives but all I seem to do today is randomly cry. I feel like such a mess cos I can't hold it together.

I've tried to be strong but it isn't working.

Why is this so hard

 

[XfairyhopesX]

massive ones xxx

 

[jojo74]

Mrs lukey, I can't begin to imagine how u are feeling, try and take the positives out of this, u managed to ovulate, u managed to conceive, hopefully now that u have this new found knowledge u can go on to conceive again, but a healthy and happy pregnancy. I'm sure u have a wonderful dh and ds, hopefully they can help u through this difficult time, I am sat here writing this with tears in my eyes, I do hope u get through this, my thoughts are with u xxxx

 

[mrs_lukey]

Mrs lukey, I can't begin to imagine how u are feeling, try and take the positives out of this, u managed to ovulate, u managed to conceive, hopefully now that u have this new found knowledge u can go on to conceive again, but a healthy and happy pregnancy. I'm sure u have a wonderful dh and ds, hopefully they can help u through this difficult time, I am sat here writing this with tears in my eyes, I do hope u get through this, my thoughts are with u xxxx

Thanks so much. I'm sorry for ranting and know this should probably be in the TTC after a Loss section but I don't know anyone in that room xxxx

 

[babyhopes2010]

That just brung tears to my eyes
i dont know what to say hun,you are in my thoughts and ill keep u in my prayers

 

[jojo74]

U not ranting at all, we are all here to help each other, your hormones are probably all over the place! When us your appointment with doc? Xx

 

[mrs_lukey]

I'm going for a scan on Tuesday and if all is clear will be having my hycosy done that day too. I know it's over as my HCG levels have dropped and my tests are completely BFN now. xxx

 

[katiekittykat]

There are no words.

 

[jojo74]

Oh no, hope it goes ok, will be thinking of u. Didn't u have appointment re low progesterone? Xx

 

[mrs_lukey]

I'm not seeing the consultant again til 23rd Dec. My last appt was 6th Sept! In the meantime I've had to have scans, this hycosy and bloods and my DH is having a repeat sperm test. This cycle I used soy and progesterone cream and my levels went from 15 to 40 and I got a BFP so I know soy and/or the cream worked. xxx

 

[seoj]

Ah hun, I'm sooooo sorry. You have every right to be sad though and allow yourself this time to grieve. Never worry about "ranting"... that's what we are here for. Don't worry about being strong right now... that will come in time. When your ready.

Sending you big hugs!!!!

 

[jojo74]

Hopefully u can get some answers, although I think u may gave answered them yourself with low progesterone. Why is this so hard, at least when we do get our sticky beans we will be sooo grateful, and will cherish every moment, I can't wait for sickness, big belly etc is the hycosy the one where they inject dye?? Xxx

 

[mrs_lukey]

Yep it's the dye one to check for tubal blockages. My recent pregnancy shows at least one tube is fine but my hospital won't do anything until I've had all the tests done xx

 

[jojo74]

Yes I had that same old chestnut back in may, had all the tests, they didn't show anything wrong! In a way I was relieved, but in another way I was completely bewildered-why can't I get a bfp!!! Anyway enough about me, u make sure u get plenty of rest, don't bottle any feelings up, u need this time to grieve. Are u going try soy this month? Xxx

 

[mrs_lukey]

I started taking soy again last night. It's giving me something to focus on xx

 

[jojo74]

That's great, keep me posted, I am in the horrible 2ww, sending u loads of baby dust!!! XXXXXXXX

 

[mrs_lukey]

I just hope this latest MC doesn't mess with my hormones too much and I can get back into a normal rhythm asap xx

 

[Feelcrazy]

I am so sorry mrslukey. You are such a great person. So sorry this keeps happening to you!

 

[mrs_lukey]

Thanks so much for your support ladies - do any of you have an actual name?! lol

I'm Felicity xxx

 

[jojo74]

I'm Jo, such a nice name felicity! Aliterate if ladies get preg again after miscarriages, hopefully it won't mess u up too much and also taking the soy will help xxx