EllaAndLyla
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Before LO I was a little bit paranoid but just the normal things like walking down the road in the dark and being a bit worried about someone following you etc. Now that I have had LO my paranoia has just got so much worse to the point where I am scared in my own house and really struggle to go into the kitchen at night and make LO up a feed. I know it sounds stupid, I leave all the lights on in the house, I cant look out the windows and I sometimes even run back into my room
Thats not the only thing either, I am paranoid whilst walking down the street during the day, I am paranoid when OH is away because I think that he is doing naughtys behind my back etc, I even get paranoid that he is watching porn or something. I get paranoid when LO looks at a certain place in the room for a while because my stupid brain thinks something like 'OMG there must be a ghost there'. Even looking at the stars gets me paranoid about the stupidest things like aliens or giant asteriods that are going to destroy the world. I know deep down that none of it is true, but in my head I cant help but think it is!! I cant even watch tv without thinking someone is watching me from outside or something and there are very few places that I actually feel 'safe'.. please don't think I am a bad mum
Does any one relate to me? Has anyone gone to there GP about it or anything, it is getting to the point where soon I will not beable to be a good mum to my baby because I will be too scared to even leave my bed I want to take medication for it but once again my paranoid brain thinks that it will make it worse and it will just fuck me up even more.
Sorry for the annoying post but I need to get it off my chest as its affecting my every day life and my ability to be a good mum x
Thats not the only thing either, I am paranoid whilst walking down the street during the day, I am paranoid when OH is away because I think that he is doing naughtys behind my back etc, I even get paranoid that he is watching porn or something. I get paranoid when LO looks at a certain place in the room for a while because my stupid brain thinks something like 'OMG there must be a ghost there'. Even looking at the stars gets me paranoid about the stupidest things like aliens or giant asteriods that are going to destroy the world. I know deep down that none of it is true, but in my head I cant help but think it is!! I cant even watch tv without thinking someone is watching me from outside or something and there are very few places that I actually feel 'safe'.. please don't think I am a bad mum
Does any one relate to me? Has anyone gone to there GP about it or anything, it is getting to the point where soon I will not beable to be a good mum to my baby because I will be too scared to even leave my bed I want to take medication for it but once again my paranoid brain thinks that it will make it worse and it will just fuck me up even more.
Sorry for the annoying post but I need to get it off my chest as its affecting my every day life and my ability to be a good mum x