bexoth2011
After testing--Not preg:(
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Ok so I just got a blood test done recently so I KNOW i am NOT pregnant.
So I decided to start a WTT journal until i really am ready to have a child
I'm heartbroken as of now, because I feel like a horrible person. For one, I know deep down i want a child so badly. But I'm only 18...
And I know I have denial issues about wanting the baby so badly. I dont want to believe that i want a baby so young, i guess? i dunno
anyways so i feel like crying for more than 1 reason too...
my fiance said he wants to wait to marry me. which is different than what he said a month ago. i think he's getting cold feet.
it just hurts because he says 'we are too young' ... and hes not saying it sensibly he's saying it like he's afraid what people would think!!
UGHHHHHHHH
and i cry because he said we'd try to start a family soon (within the next few years.)
now i'm nervous that we wont be able to have kids
because we need to have them sooner than then.... (he might have something wrong with his prostate)
i'm worried he'll die as well
i wouldn't be able to live without him... oh gosh now i am crying...
I'm so scared.
So I decided to start a WTT journal until i really am ready to have a child
I'm heartbroken as of now, because I feel like a horrible person. For one, I know deep down i want a child so badly. But I'm only 18...
And I know I have denial issues about wanting the baby so badly. I dont want to believe that i want a baby so young, i guess? i dunno
anyways so i feel like crying for more than 1 reason too...
my fiance said he wants to wait to marry me. which is different than what he said a month ago. i think he's getting cold feet.
it just hurts because he says 'we are too young' ... and hes not saying it sensibly he's saying it like he's afraid what people would think!!
UGHHHHHHHH
and i cry because he said we'd try to start a family soon (within the next few years.)
now i'm nervous that we wont be able to have kids
because we need to have them sooner than then.... (he might have something wrong with his prostate)
i'm worried he'll die as well
i wouldn't be able to live without him... oh gosh now i am crying...
I'm so scared.