princessb2012
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Sorry this story is very very long, id shorten it but theres nothing i think should be taken out, so my little man is nearly two weeks old and I'm only just writing my birth story but only because it was pretty traumatic for me so I'm only just ready really to talk about it 
and its gonna be a long story lol pre warning
Okay so firstly I went into hospital on Saturday the 22nd to be induced, I went in early but there wasn't a doctor around to prescribe the pessary by later so it was put in about 6 and honestly I remember it working immediately because my tightenings were becoming more and more uncomfortable and as the evening went on they were getting painful rather than uncomfortable and I was able to time them and they were pretty regular and my mum kept saying on the phone it sounds like early labour and I said no its not painful enough but I did check with the midwife and she said its probably just tightnings so I just ignored them all evening but still kept timing themby 12 the pains were very annoying, I could have just dealt with them but the midwifes kept telling me to sleep and there was no way I was sleeping through that, so I made the midwife check me and she said I was 3cm woo
but she said she didn't want to take the pessary out incase it stopped working but she still told me to just sleep and at this point I didn't want any pain relief I remember oh texting me saying ask for some pain relief and I said no I'm not a pussy haha but about 2 I ended up asking for pethedin so I could have a sleep and I loved it, it made me soo sleepy the only problem was I'd shut my eyes and felt like 10 minutes went past but it was barely a minute or two when I opened my eyes, overall I got about an hours sleep altogether but then woke up about 4 because the pains were to much and eventually I convinced the midwife I needed to be checked and I was 6cm
so I got to go down to delivery suite and by this time I had gas and air to get me through contractions but I was just so stressed calling my OH even though he was on his way and literally running because he missed his night bus I was still calling every 5 minutes to see where he was and from this time till I was pushing I just remember feeling how much I wanted to poo so they brought in a thing for me to poo in but I couldn't go, I remember feeling like I wanted to push but the midwife kept saying I wasn't due to be checked until 8 but eventually she had a feel and when she did I ended up pushing her hand out of the way but she said if I wanted to push I could and ill probably break my waters and she thinks he'll be straight after so I did push and break my waters and then proceeded to push straight away, this bit was definetly difficult I felt like it was never gonna happen, and I was just pushing randomly I don't know if it was when I felt contractions or not but after about 20 minutes of pushing my little man was born at 7:14 weighing 6 pound 14, Mason Riley Liam Van-Ristell (we didn't decide his name till about 3 days after birth)
But it's what happend about an hour later that affected me so bad, I asked my mum to go get me some food because I was starving and whilst in the room with just OH and midwife I looked down on the bed and there was a lot of blood so I asked my midwife if it was okay, this is we're it all changed, she saw it and there was immediate panic, she rushed out the room and about 10 people including doctors and everything rushed in and there I was calling my mum to come back and there was a midwife who told me to get off the phone at this time I didn't like her but she proved to be my angel the next few days, I was being prodded with needles, put on a drip, a catheter put in, and this whole time I was just clueless, I remember seeing my OH and his eyes filled up with tears and he left the room and my mum just standing there the most scared iv ever seen her, her face looked like she had seen a ghost and all I could do was repeatedly say what's happening, am I going to be okay and the fact that they couldn't say yes was even scarier, I don't even remember much of what happend after this but they managed to stop the bleeding and then I remember having a couple of stitches done on my inner labia which could only be done by the doctor as the midwifes weren't comfortable with where they were. I went on to spend 5 days in hospital and bubba also had jaundice which went over the treatment line so he had to have light therapy but he's all better
Honestly compared to the hemmorage and what it's done to my mind the labour was a breeze, I spent all the days in hospital afterwards thinking that something is about to happen to me and I'm going to die, it sounds ridiculous saying it but every condition that cause maternal deaths iv considered, there's been multiple times where iv broke down in tears because iv had a bad feeling something is about to happen, I must of been a nightmare for midwifes because I was constantly asking for them to check my blood pressure, my temperature, my stomach, and even my pads, I also took a pot to pee in every time I went to toilet because a couple of days after labour I had a massive clot and I was worried it was gonna happen again so every time I went to wee and there was a clot I'd keep it for the midwifes to check, there was a few midwifes who understood that I was just the most scared person in the world and they just did every check and everything they could to reassure me but there was a few who just kept telling me don't worry which was literally impossible, I also had to have a transfusion as I lost over a litre and a half altogether and I didn't really feel any good affect of it because I couldn't get any sleep because I thought something would happen if I did to either me or mason.
The worrying hasn't completely stopped, I had a chest X-ray the other day because I told my gp I'm worried I might have dvt and a clot in my lungs and I also had my blood taken and a urine test to check for infection, I'm hoping all this worrying is gona stop but I know it will definetly affect me in the future when I want more children, I couldn't go through that agin, no way.
One thing I must say is I couldn't have done it without OH, the first couple of days in hospital that he was still allowed to stay he did literally everything apart from feeding because I'm breastfeeding, I don't even think I changed a nappy till he was one or two days old, and when we were moved to a ward where he couldn't stay I cried every night when he went home, he's been amazing, I wish he didn't have to go back to work
and its gonna be a long story lol pre warningOkay so firstly I went into hospital on Saturday the 22nd to be induced, I went in early but there wasn't a doctor around to prescribe the pessary by later so it was put in about 6 and honestly I remember it working immediately because my tightenings were becoming more and more uncomfortable and as the evening went on they were getting painful rather than uncomfortable and I was able to time them and they were pretty regular and my mum kept saying on the phone it sounds like early labour and I said no its not painful enough but I did check with the midwife and she said its probably just tightnings so I just ignored them all evening but still kept timing themby 12 the pains were very annoying, I could have just dealt with them but the midwifes kept telling me to sleep and there was no way I was sleeping through that, so I made the midwife check me and she said I was 3cm woo
but she said she didn't want to take the pessary out incase it stopped working but she still told me to just sleep and at this point I didn't want any pain relief I remember oh texting me saying ask for some pain relief and I said no I'm not a pussy haha but about 2 I ended up asking for pethedin so I could have a sleep and I loved it, it made me soo sleepy the only problem was I'd shut my eyes and felt like 10 minutes went past but it was barely a minute or two when I opened my eyes, overall I got about an hours sleep altogether but then woke up about 4 because the pains were to much and eventually I convinced the midwife I needed to be checked and I was 6cm so I got to go down to delivery suite and by this time I had gas and air to get me through contractions but I was just so stressed calling my OH even though he was on his way and literally running because he missed his night bus I was still calling every 5 minutes to see where he was and from this time till I was pushing I just remember feeling how much I wanted to poo so they brought in a thing for me to poo in but I couldn't go, I remember feeling like I wanted to push but the midwife kept saying I wasn't due to be checked until 8 but eventually she had a feel and when she did I ended up pushing her hand out of the way but she said if I wanted to push I could and ill probably break my waters and she thinks he'll be straight after so I did push and break my waters and then proceeded to push straight away, this bit was definetly difficult I felt like it was never gonna happen, and I was just pushing randomly I don't know if it was when I felt contractions or not but after about 20 minutes of pushing my little man was born at 7:14 weighing 6 pound 14, Mason Riley Liam Van-Ristell (we didn't decide his name till about 3 days after birth)
But it's what happend about an hour later that affected me so bad, I asked my mum to go get me some food because I was starving and whilst in the room with just OH and midwife I looked down on the bed and there was a lot of blood so I asked my midwife if it was okay, this is we're it all changed, she saw it and there was immediate panic, she rushed out the room and about 10 people including doctors and everything rushed in and there I was calling my mum to come back and there was a midwife who told me to get off the phone at this time I didn't like her but she proved to be my angel the next few days, I was being prodded with needles, put on a drip, a catheter put in, and this whole time I was just clueless, I remember seeing my OH and his eyes filled up with tears and he left the room and my mum just standing there the most scared iv ever seen her, her face looked like she had seen a ghost and all I could do was repeatedly say what's happening, am I going to be okay and the fact that they couldn't say yes was even scarier, I don't even remember much of what happend after this but they managed to stop the bleeding and then I remember having a couple of stitches done on my inner labia which could only be done by the doctor as the midwifes weren't comfortable with where they were. I went on to spend 5 days in hospital and bubba also had jaundice which went over the treatment line so he had to have light therapy but he's all better
Honestly compared to the hemmorage and what it's done to my mind the labour was a breeze, I spent all the days in hospital afterwards thinking that something is about to happen to me and I'm going to die, it sounds ridiculous saying it but every condition that cause maternal deaths iv considered, there's been multiple times where iv broke down in tears because iv had a bad feeling something is about to happen, I must of been a nightmare for midwifes because I was constantly asking for them to check my blood pressure, my temperature, my stomach, and even my pads, I also took a pot to pee in every time I went to toilet because a couple of days after labour I had a massive clot and I was worried it was gonna happen again so every time I went to wee and there was a clot I'd keep it for the midwifes to check, there was a few midwifes who understood that I was just the most scared person in the world and they just did every check and everything they could to reassure me but there was a few who just kept telling me don't worry which was literally impossible, I also had to have a transfusion as I lost over a litre and a half altogether and I didn't really feel any good affect of it because I couldn't get any sleep because I thought something would happen if I did to either me or mason.
The worrying hasn't completely stopped, I had a chest X-ray the other day because I told my gp I'm worried I might have dvt and a clot in my lungs and I also had my blood taken and a urine test to check for infection, I'm hoping all this worrying is gona stop but I know it will definetly affect me in the future when I want more children, I couldn't go through that agin, no way.
One thing I must say is I couldn't have done it without OH, the first couple of days in hospital that he was still allowed to stay he did literally everything apart from feeding because I'm breastfeeding, I don't even think I changed a nappy till he was one or two days old, and when we were moved to a ward where he couldn't stay I cried every night when he went home, he's been amazing, I wish he didn't have to go back to work
