I lost my baby at 16+2 weeks on the 18th Nov & am finding it hard to deal with.
I had bleeding/spotting since my 12 week scan, in various colours, shades and flow. I had many scans which all showed that the baby was fine and doing well.
However on the 14th Nov I woke up at midnight and realised I was drenched and ran to the toilet, there I bled loads more and passed clots etc.
I went to a&e where they admitted me and said that my cervix was slightly open and it was a threatened miscarriage. I was so upset at this point and didn't know what to do.
Anyway they kept me in hospital and said they wanted to observe me & couldn't send me home incase i miscarried and lost alot of blood.
During my stay at hospital they scanned me many times using the portable scanner and the baby was showing a heartbeat at all times.
I had another heavy bleed and bad cramping/contractions on 16th Nov and was sure I lost the baby but sure enough the portable scanner showed a heartbeat.
The following day I was finally taken for a proper ultrasound. Myself & my husband had such high hopes, we thought this Dr would be able to tell us why I have been bleeding for so long.
But unfortunately after scanning for less than 30secs she turned around to me & told me that I was miscarrying and the baby was now in my cervix!! These words and that moment keep playing in my mind
I was then taken to a special room where I gave birth to my baby on the 18th at 08:05
This is the hardest thing that I have done and now I am dreading the cremation that we have to arrange for my baby once the postmortem results are here.
I have a few questions-
From what I have told you above, does anyone have any ideas as to why I may have miscarried? I keep thinking about it but nothing makes sense.
And any ideas on how to cope with the cremation? I just think whatever progress we are making now to deal with this is going to be hindered when we have the funeral to deal with this. But we cant do it yet until the postmortem is done.
I had bleeding/spotting since my 12 week scan, in various colours, shades and flow. I had many scans which all showed that the baby was fine and doing well.
However on the 14th Nov I woke up at midnight and realised I was drenched and ran to the toilet, there I bled loads more and passed clots etc.
I went to a&e where they admitted me and said that my cervix was slightly open and it was a threatened miscarriage. I was so upset at this point and didn't know what to do.
Anyway they kept me in hospital and said they wanted to observe me & couldn't send me home incase i miscarried and lost alot of blood.
During my stay at hospital they scanned me many times using the portable scanner and the baby was showing a heartbeat at all times.
I had another heavy bleed and bad cramping/contractions on 16th Nov and was sure I lost the baby but sure enough the portable scanner showed a heartbeat.
The following day I was finally taken for a proper ultrasound. Myself & my husband had such high hopes, we thought this Dr would be able to tell us why I have been bleeding for so long.
But unfortunately after scanning for less than 30secs she turned around to me & told me that I was miscarrying and the baby was now in my cervix!! These words and that moment keep playing in my mind
I was then taken to a special room where I gave birth to my baby on the 18th at 08:05
This is the hardest thing that I have done and now I am dreading the cremation that we have to arrange for my baby once the postmortem results are here.
I have a few questions-
From what I have told you above, does anyone have any ideas as to why I may have miscarried? I keep thinking about it but nothing makes sense.
And any ideas on how to cope with the cremation? I just think whatever progress we are making now to deal with this is going to be hindered when we have the funeral to deal with this. But we cant do it yet until the postmortem is done.