Can anyone help please?

[lillylove12]

Hi

Im new on here, and desperate for some advise / comments...

My last pregnancy sadly ended just before 12 weeks - a missed miscarriage. I began bleeding at work.

I had a D&C (well 2 infact as there was still retained product after the first D&C).

I waited for my period, and used ovulation prediction kits to help get pregnant again - which I did!

I went for a early preg scan which we guessed would be around the 6 week mark. We could see the sack and yolk, however they advised I looked more like 5 weeks and was booked in for a follow up scan 2 weeks later.

I had that follow up scan yesterday. I was so nervous!! They did an internal scan. Unfortunately no heartbeat and they said the 'baby' was measuring very small at 2mm, which is a development from the last scan. They said perhaps I am not as far gone as 7 weeks.

Im very confused and worried my baby isnt developing as it should be - and Im going to miscarry again

Im driving my husband nuts - as he's telling me Im being so negative

I cant stop crying and feel like Im making things worse.

I do have long cycles - anything from 32- 35 days, so not very regular?
My last 1st day of period was 30th July
I had a positive ovulation prediction test on aug 15th
We tried to have a baby 15 / 16 /and 17th aug

I did a preg test on 27th - and it was positive 1-2 weeks.

I keep redoing the maths and trying to work it out.....but I just cant understand why baby is so small and no heartbeat.

Please help - I just want to know

Sending all my love and baby dust to all x

 

[bellaxgee]

did you get a +opk after the 15th? its possible that you only caught the beginning of your surge and you O'd a few days later and implanted later.

i had a late implanter and didn't get a + until 14dpo...-13dpo and it set my dates back by about a week..

good luck i hope your little bean sticks! fx

 

[lillylove12]

Hi - thank you for the speedy reply - I really really appreciate talking to someone - Ive not told any friend in fear it would go wrong.

I didnt test with ovulation kit after the 15th.....hope you are right and I just ovulated later. I thought once you get the positive surge you release an egg 12-24 hours later?Maybe I didnt fertilize until the 22nd,...or the sperm took its time travelling up???!

Praying that im maybe only 5+1 weeks preg, and then that would explain the situ.

Its just the look on the doctors faces - very blank and saying they dont know - they said baby spec has a 50/50 % chance. they didnt give me sac measurments - on screen I could see the big sac and a shadow inside it. They didnt explain - and I should have asked more questions, but I was just trying to hold the emotion in

I wish I could sleep for a week and wake up on scan day!

thank you for your message xxx

 

[bazzb]

i didnt want to read and run

I have no advise to offer just wanted to let you know that you will be in my prayers and I hope you have a good outcome this time, you definatly deserve it
XXXX

 

[lillylove12]

Hi

After my post I booked a private scan on saturday. Unfortunately the results were exactly the same as the hospitals - fetal pole measuring 2mm and no heartbeat. I expected some grow in 3 days at least. I could be 6-8 weeks by now???
I feel as though I have miscarried again - Ive got no symptoms, fatigue has gone, no sore breasts, no peeing a lot at night....nothing.
I spoke to my doctor yesterday and he said it didnt look very good, but they will know more tomorrow when I have my follow up hospital scan. I am preparing myself for the worst but I know you cant really prepare yourself for those words.
Ive been so low, I cant bear to see my pragnant friends - I know that sounds awful and selfish. But it makes me feel so emotional and question why cant I do that.
My husband finds it hard to deal with - I know he wants to fix things and tries to say the right things - but we just end up arguing.
I just need to focus on the next step - which is - when can I start trying again? Can I try before my next cycle post D&C. I feel desperate. Limbo land and waiting makes me feel too down.
Ive read once youve had 2 miscarriages chances you miscarry again is 40% - I hope they are wrong.
I feel a mess and cant say anything to my boss as last miscarriage I took quite a lot of time off (as I was in hospital for a week, and then time to recover..)......and at the moment the attitude is we all have to work over and above our contracts.....so I feel I just cant say im trying again and going through the same loss.
Im such a mess. Sorry for the rant - no friends know as I cant bear to talk about it face to face - feel so alone
Will I ever hold my own healthy baby?

Thinking of all of you going through similar experiences - wishing you good news is just around the corner
x

 

[lillylove12]

thank you and sending you a lot of love and strength x

 

[bazzb]

I will keep you in my prayers XX

 

[bellaxgee]

so sorry for what you are going through. i pray that one day soon you will be holding your rainbow baby in your arms.