Can I moan please :(

[ClaireLR]

Can I have a moan please???

Well my best friend is pregnant after trying for one month, I am genuinely happy for her (no really) but it just brings it home to me that I'm still not pregnant after a year of trying (I know thats a lot less than some but it's been forever to me). I'm taking Clomid which is making me miserable (anyone else?), I've been a bitch to live with recently so much so that I wonder why OH hasn't left me yet. On top of that, this time last year I was pregnant and I can't stop thinking about that recently, I had a mc on 14 June so thats the next hurdle. Along with this, OH can't stop talking about going on holiday in November time and/or buying a new car, I can't get excited or allow myself to book/buy anything "just in case" I get that little pink line that will change my life forever - so it feels as though my life is on hold and I don't know when it will end. Added to that the fact that I can't lose any weight (damn PCOS) and I'm having a pretty shitty time at the moment

Sorry just needed to get it all off my chest

 

[toby2]

((((())))))) its always tough to hear about other peoples pregnancys when its what you want, sorry your having a crappy time of it, its so hard not to put your life on hold and i dont know the answer to how you dont?its hard when its all you can think about-hope this passes for you soon
xxx

 

[The Missus]

 

[Mrs R]

Moan away all you like Claire! I know how you feel. My 16 y.o cousin had a baby last week and thinks her life is over, whereas I, on the other hand would give anything to have a baby. Why is life so unfair??

Like you, I have PCOS and the whole weight thing gets me down quite a bit as well. And I'm on 150mg of clomid, took my last tablets on Sunday and the side effects were horrible! Not so much with my mood, but I got really bad dizziness, almost like a hangover but I hadn't been drinking. I got the lady sweats day and night (and in the middle of a very important meeting!) and just generally felt disgusting for 5 days.

I have my scan on Sunday to see if it worked but tbh, I'm not getting my hopes up. I'm just in a really negative place. So ur not alone xxx

 

[WendyB]

i know how you feel, ive been trying for 15 months and i just found out my lil sister is pregnant, i dont think she was even trying! i am happy for her but its so hard not to get depressed about it.

i cant really plan too much in the future either just in case, i really wish i was one of the lucky ones who dont even really need to try!

 

[chefamy1122]

 

[cazhd]

HI ClaireLR, sorry to hear your having a rough time

I know exactly how you feel, i always feel better coming on here and letting it all out. You said your life feels like its on hold, thats one change i've made recently, me and DH have been ttc for coming on 24 months and i really wasn't coping and felt we weren't doing things just in case we got our . So now instead DH and i have been booking holidays and doing the things we want to do and have looked at it that if we get our at least we won't be going on holiday for a much worthy reason.

Hope that helps, big

 

[ClaireLR]

Thank you girls! It's so good to come here and know that there ae others in the same position who really know what your going through, I have friends I can talk to about this type of thing but of course they don't really understand at all what I'm going through. Caz that sounds like a good plan, its mental to put your life on hold really when you don't know how long it's going to be for, I just keep thinking of all the money we will spend on holiday that could be spent on doing up a room/buying a cot/buying nappies etc and it feels like a waste, but how can it be a waste when I'm trying to save for something that potentially could take a very long time to happen. I'm scared that I will look back in a few years and realise how much time I've wasted that we could have spent enjoying ourselves.

I really feel like I need to chill out a little (or even a lot!) but not to sure how to do it. Maybe I will book a holiday with OH, give me something to look forward to.

Mrs R - 150mg of Clomid, I don't know how you cope. The side effects I've had on 50mg have been hard to cope with, night sweats, mood swings, painful boobs and generally feeling depressed as anything. I hope your scan goes well on Sunday and you get some really well deserved good news.

 

[sparkle_smile]

Can I have a moan please???

Well my best friend is pregnant after trying for one month, I am genuinely happy for her (no really) but it just brings it home to me that I'm still not pregnant after a year of trying (I know thats a lot less than some but it's been forever to me). I'm taking Clomid which is making me miserable (anyone else?), I've been a bitch to live with recently so much so that I wonder why OH hasn't left me yet. On top of that, this time last year I was pregnant and I can't stop thinking about that recently, I had a mc on 14 June so thats the next hurdle. Along with this, OH can't stop talking about going on holiday in November time and/or buying a new car, I can't get excited or allow myself to book/buy anything "just in case" I get that little pink line that will change my life forever - so it feels as though my life is on hold and I don't know when it will end. Added to that the fact that I can't lose any weight (damn PCOS) and I'm having a pretty shitty time at the moment



Sorry just needed to get it all off my chest

Heya hunny,

We all have times like this. It is great about your best friend, but think about it this way, ur baby is going to be that much more special and precious to you when it happens, because you have had to wait longer than most people and you have wanted it so much more. So yes, your friend may have gotten pregnant after just one month, but you have spent a lot longer trying and wishing, hoping and praying. Just imagine how lucky your child is going to feel, to know he/she was wanted that much! To know that you never gave up hope because that little angel was all you wanted. Every kid deserves to know that they were wanted that much!!
Your OH won't leave you because he loves you, yeh you may be a bitch at times, we all are, its part of just being a woman I'm awful to my OH sometimes, but he just brushes it off and forgets about it. Just give him a big kiss and cuddle sometimes and tell him how much you appreciate him. I do it to my boyfriend and it makes me feel better for all those times that i go crazy ass on him with PMS.
As for the weight thing, it will take time, but with perseverance, it will happen. Walk loads, walk anywhere you can. Eat right (sound patronising i know) but sometimes we eat stuff thinking it's alright, and when you really look at whats in it, you realise it wasn't as healthy as you first thought!
Anyway, I will hopefully be speaking to you more in the near future, so we can moan together and I'll be here to give you any advice you need

hunny

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[ClaireLR]

Thanks hun. I know what you mean about wanting it more definitely!!! Feeling a little better now, chatted to OH and we've decided to go ahead and book a holiday which will give us something to look forward to.

Need to get a plan of action on the go regards the weight loss, think that is something I can start ASAP that will make me feel better because at least I will be doing something positive for myself.

 

[Jan34]

Hi Claire,

Sorry to hear you're feeling down. Know exactly how you're feeling , it's crap isn't it.

We've just taken the same decsision as Cazhd. Everything's been on hold for 2 years including decorating / furniture buying (might as well wait until we need a nursery) and holidays (might be too pregnant to go, might need the money for maternity leave etc). Well we've decided to sod all that and get on with live, so have ben on a furniture buying / decorating / booking holiday spree. It's been quite liberating, i can recommend it!

Good luck hon, hope you're feeling better soon.

 

[Maidenet]

Hey huni, its normal to feel that way. I have a few friends that have just had babys.... none of which where tried for at all, and all of them had only been in relationships about 1 month or so.... My step sister who is 15yr had an abortion at 4 months gone.... Some days I feel so much anger towards these people.

Dont feel bad about it, I think its very normal xxxx