cannot stop crying! I feel ridiculous.

[curlymama]

I'm five weeks along so far, and I can already feel the crazy hormones.
My boyfriend lives across the street from me- with his mom. He has to get up at seven in the morning to go to work until five or six in the evening. We stay together (usually at my house) on the weekends and sometimes on weekdays, but when i stay at his place on the weekdays he doesn't get much sleep because his bed is really small and i've become a very restless sleeper due to the pregnancy. He doesn't like staying at my house during the week because he has to wake up a little earlier to make the treck across the street to get ready and everything- he always ends up staying in my bed too long.
I want him to get a good night's rest- but every time he walks me home and is about to leave i burst into tears and can't stop- so of course i end up calling him and going back to his place for another crappy night's sleep. I feel really bad- but I just get so sad when he's gone. I feel really ridiculous but I can't help it!
Tonight he's having dinner at his best friend's house. He didn't tell me until he was already there and said he didn't know when to be home. My immediate response is to just be upset- which leads to me being angry with him - and that's so stupid! he has to have his time with his friends- especially go get a break from all my mood swings, but I can't get enough of him right now- all i want is him to hold me.
He understands but I also haven't told him exactly how extreme i feel about it because I feel just a little bit crazy and guilty for being selfish and wanting all of his attention.
Any feedback? Thanks in advance!
xx
CurlyMama

 

[GraceyP]

Bless you - I can see where you are coming from and I'm not even pregnant () It's not your fault but you have to remember your boyfriend needs time to adjust and just to get some space. X

 

[x__amour]

 

[3Beans]

Ah.....hormones. What you're feeling is very normal. It does get better. I promise. I'm 7 weeks now and just mellowing out a wee bit where I'm not so emotional, although I still cry easily. It'll get better.

 

[curlymama]

thanks for the responses and support it really helps!

 

[beanzz]

I'd tell him exactly how you feel, even if it makes you sound crazy. I kept so many of my feelings from FOB when we were together during my pregnancy and it put a wedge inbetween us. He should understand and appreciate you being completely open about your feelings

 

[bsd]

If anyone knows how you feel its me! And I wasn't even pregnant when this started! I've been with my OH for years now and in the beginning of our relationship I was fine with separation although all we wanted was to be together 24/7 anyway and we were able to at that point, except when I worked. So the closer I became with him the worse it got, he felt the same except obviously he's a guy so he's not as emotional or attached as women can be so he didn't have as much as a problem with separation as I did. I would take this as a bad thing I would feel so upset that he didn't feel the same exact way as me even though I know I was being crazy because everyone needs to be alone or space from each other eventually. I didn't want that at all and if he wanted to be with his friends instead of me even for ONE NIGHT I would take it to heart and be so offended! I followed him everywhere if I couldn't go I would make him feel guilty for leaving me so he wouldn't go either. We struggled a lot with it through out our whole relationship.
After telling you all that I'm sorry to say I don't have advice for you I have separation anxiety so bad I've been dealing with it my whole life so luckily my OH is so nice and supports me in every way he can. You should definitely talk to him about it though, If you tell him you know you shouldn't feel this way but its something you cant explain and are TRYING to work on it he should be there to help you! My OH had to learn patience with me because everytime I did let him go out I made him text me constantly and I'd be so emotional (and mean to him sometimes) that it would cause fights. As long as your willing to work on the problem he should be willing to have patience with you! The only thing I could say, try to stay strong through the tears and awful horrible feelings when you do have to separate! I Just told myself that I DO NOT want to lose my OH and I have to deal with it so I don't send him running. If he is anything like my OH he will care enough to not want to make you feel that way, even if we are being a little crazy

Sorry for the essay but I can totally relate to that awful separation feeling and feel free to message me if you want to talk more!!

 

[curlymama]

thanks so much to everybody!
and in reply to bsd...
I talk to him a lot and he does understand ... he realizes also, that I am pregnant (we just got our first ultrasound on Tuesday- SO AMAZING) and so he's just trying to settle into becoming a dad. I'm naturally a pretty clingy person- and he's figured that out in the while we've been together. He deals with it well and puts up with me wanting to be with him almost all the time.
He does still go out with his friends (which is good, because i might start to make him crazy, too)but he tells me when he's coming home and if he can see me that night. We're currently trying to find a place together for after the baby's born. (I'm seven weeks along) We're both working hard on the emotional part of becoming parents- and realizing that he has to work almost all day everyday and I'm going to be going to school starting in January we're going to have to be OK with being apart during the day. I think that will make it easier for us to enjoy our time together in the evenings.

thanks again guys!

 

[heyyydayyy]

I can totally understand...for the majority of my pregnancy my boyfriend lived an hour away. So he would come and stay with me for 2 or 3 days, then I wouldn't see him for almost a week. It was torture and I started feeling like I was having separation anxiety. He had a falling out with the person he was living with so now he's staying at my place. It's soooo much nicer and I love spending every day/night with him. But there have been times where he has to go run errands or be out for most of the day and I feel miserable! I just miss him so much. I don't really have any advice on what to do, but I can tell you that you aren't alone!

 

[chandita]

Huge thanks! Its nice to hear that I'm not totally crazy

 

[jozylynn896]

Omg we are literally in the same situation!
My boyfriend has to be up at 7 in the morning and I literally can't fall asleeep until like 5 or. 6!
When he has to leave my house I just bawl my eyes out and tell him I hate him and all this crazy shit! He lives like 20 minutes away from me and I feel really bad for doing it but I can't help it! I just CAN'T be without him holding me!
For some people it goes away early but right now I'm 22 weeks and its not even slowing down!