cant help but panic about another MC

[MissGossip]

The closer I get to the same cycle day I MC in January the more nervous and worked up I am getting about every little thing, I am now 5w3d and when I MC'd my boobs started to feel normal at 5w5d I then miscarried a week later.

I woke up this morning and went in to a panic saying they aren't as sore anymore then of course started crying thinking its going to happen all over again.

I know I seem ridiculous but we want this baby sooo bad, I know just because I've had one MC doesn't mean I will have another but I am really struggling to think I will ever see a scan of my baby, as the day has progressed I have realized my boobs are still very much tender and a lot of it is probably in my head. I'm just hoping I'm not the only person driving myself insane about this

worst thing is we are going away on Sunday until Thursday and I'm worried sick something is going to happen whilst I'm not at home.

Sorry to vent, all hubby does is tells me to stop getting myself worked up. xx

 

[Amygdala]

Hugs! I know exactly how you feel. I don't think you can really get rid off the fear so I just get to keep busy and occupy my mind with other things as best as I can. Hopefully making it through the next week or so will make things a little easier for you.

 

[MissGossip]

thanks lovely, I'm hoping so too, I have a scan booked on the 12th, I really want to just make it to that date then at least I can know what's going on either way! Good Luck to you to! xx

 

[floridamomma]

I know it's hard. I've had 6 losses and this pregnant is the furthest I've gone and I've only got here by being as calm as possible. You can do this. Your body can sustain your baby.

 

[MissGossip]

I know it's hard. I've had 6 losses and this pregnant is the furthest I've gone and I've only got here by being as calm as possible. You can do this. Your body can sustain your baby.

6 losses...I'm so sorry that must be really hard, I admire you managing to stay so calm with this pregnancy, how far gone are you now? I know I need to stay calm as there isn't anything I can do, I just dread going through another MC especially whilst I am away.

Deep down I feel this pregnancy will be okay as I've been much more nauseous and tired, last time I felt too normal. But I guess only time will tell

Thanks for your support, this is why I love this page so much! xx

 

[floridamomma]

I'm 9 weeks along today. Thank you. We'll both be ok.

 

[Dollybird]

I know how u feel. It's taking all my strength not to fall into a state of panic. I had an ectopic the first time I fell preggo but then went on to have a son the second time round. I think I stupidly believed that if it had happened once it wouldn't happen again so when I fell preggo the third time I thought it would be OK. Boy was I wrong, and went onto have a mmc. So this time round I feel like there are no guarentees.. I know the law of averages means squat! But I also know that there's no reason for it to go WRONG this time round either. Am I'm clinging onto that until I know otherwise. I don't wanna ruin the experience of what maybe my last pregnancy by living in fear. I pregnant today.. And that's Gotta be enough for me.
Hope all goes well for you ladies. Sorry for your losses xxx

 

[JasmineFrame]

I'm so glad I found ur post because I am feeling the exact same way I just found out yesterday I am pregnant after trying for 8 months after my mc I have to go back in Wednesday to have another quant done to make sure my numbers are doubling and I'm freaking out all I can think is I can't lose this baby I've tried so hard to get pregnant I'm freaking out

 

[MissGossip]

I'm so glad I found ur post because I am feeling the exact same way I just found out yesterday I am pregnant after trying for 8 months after my mc I have to go back in Wednesday to have another quant done to make sure my numbers are doubling and I'm freaking out all I can think is I can't lose this baby I've tried so hard to get pregnant I'm freaking out

I completely he your fear, this is the scariest time. I have a 7 week reassurance scan this evening and praying it's a good result but I just don't know. I'm trying to stay positive but don't want to allow myself to think the best good look to you! Let me know how you get on xx

 

[JasmineFrame]

I will say a prayer for you I have my HCG quant again in the morning my CM seems a little weird to me its not thick and white its just clear which is starting to worry me

 

[MissGossip]

Well I just had an early scan, saw the baby and its little heartbeat! Amazing feeling! Stay positive xx

 

[Sophie2015]

Hi all! I was searching for a post about not comparing pregnancies that resulted in mc to your current pregnancy and found this. Congrats MissGossip! I hope the rest of you are doing well.
AFM, I'm 4w3d and have had 2 betas drawn with a 47 hour doubling time. But I can't relax. I keep thinking 'my first two pregnancies were like this and I still miscarried'. Ugh!! I guess after 4 losses and no living babies I just can't believe it'll actually happen this time. Wish I could relax and enjoy it.
Thanks for listening.