Can't Stop Crying

[Prayingforno1]

DH and I have been ttc for 2.5 years now. I changed doctors at the beginning of the year because the gynecologist I was going to was just too laid back basically telling me to just give it time it will happen.

After multiple tests, blood work with my new doctor we now know I have not been able to conceive because DH semen is low all around, low count, low morphology, low motility etc. Based on his results my doctor says that he wouldn't recommend IUI but suggests we go straight to IVF. I feel so overwhelmed. IVF is so costly and my insurance doesn't cover it. I want to be a mother so bad, I am sitting here crying and screaming. I would have never thought this would be so difficult emotionally. All of my friends have kids and 2 just announced they are expecting. I am happy they will soon be mothers but when I get alone I end up crying and asking when will it be my turn? When will I be making that call to say I'm pregnant??

Only people who've been LTTC can truly understand how emotionally taxing this process is, I feel so emotionally drained and apart from DH there is no one I can talk and confide in. Who would have known that I would have spent my younger years trying not to get pregnant to sit here now stressing because getting pregnant is not as easy as I thought.

 

[flou]

Dealing with problems getting pg when for most it is the easiest thing is really hard and isolating. Just know that you are not alone. All the women here are going through a similar emotional rollercoaster ride. I hope you manage to have ivf done and become the mum you want to be. Good luck

 

[Myshelsong]

So sorry hun, I completely understand.
LTTC has been the hardest thing I have ever experienced. Know that you are not alone and everyone cries it is ok.
While you are saving for IVF i would suggest having hubby take some vitamins. There have been some success stories of men on here that we able to increase their counts by simply taking different vitamins and minerals. It takes about 3 months to start seeing the affects but keep going for it, what do you have to loose?

 

[Prayingforno1]

Thank you ladies. I will be ensuring hubby takes lots of vitamins while we save up. This journey really is an emotional rollercoaster but the end prize is all worth it

 

[ilovegoob]

Maca is great for low sperm count and motility. Good luck.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

I'm sorry to hear what you are going through but you are at the right place as pretty much everyone on this board knows how you are feeling in one way or another. There are a few good threads going which are more specific to dealing with Male Factor Infertility (MFI) - they might help they might not but there are certainly lots of suggestions of vitamins etc that you could suggest to your OH. There are lots of us here to talk when you need to.

Here are a couple of other threads you might be interested in.....

Spouses with low sperm count

and this one gives some hope.....

Success stories with Male Factor Infertility

 

[Baby1day]

DH and I have been ttc for 2.5 years now. I changed doctors at the beginning of the year because the gynecologist I was going to was just too laid back basically telling me to just give it time it will happen.

After multiple tests, blood work with my new doctor we now know I have not been able to conceive because DH semen is low all around, low count, low morphology, low motility etc. Based on his results my doctor says that he wouldn't recommend IUI but suggests we go straight to IVF. I feel so overwhelmed. IVF is so costly and my insurance doesn't cover it. I want to be a mother so bad, I am sitting here crying and screaming. I would have never thought this would be so difficult emotionally. All of my friends have kids and 2 just announced they are expecting. I am happy they will soon be mothers but when I get alone I end up crying and asking when will it be my turn? When will I be making that call to say I'm pregnant??

Only people who've been LTTC can truly understand how emotionally taxing this process is, I feel so emotionally drained and apart from DH there is no one I can talk and confide in. Who would have known that I would have spent my younger years trying not to get pregnant to sit here now stressing because getting pregnant is not as easy as I thought.

Your story is very similar to mine. We've been ttc for 2.5 years, started when I was 31. My spouse has low morphology and the last fa we went to said we have <1% chance of conceiving naturally. It is sooo frustrating! We might try IUI no more than twice and if that doesn't take then we are going to start the adoption process. IVF is way to expensive for us and it doesn't guarantee a child. I just can't do it. But, I totally know how your feeling. Just keep your head up. If you want to be a mother, it will happen one way or another. Good luck!

 

[kaypray]

Don't give up hope! My hubby had low motility and then it almost doubled! There are many factors including a bad test once in a while. My hubby was on vitamins, macca and infertilaid. He also cut down caffeine and briefs. I don't know if any of them helped but something made it better.