Chinese Accupuncture

[kits]

So sorry Briss, I totally feel ya.

I am so down that I feel like I'm going to quit my job. Even updated my journal as I couldn't shake the feeling.. But mine started last night. Just a wave of doom & gloom.

Can't seem to connect with my few friends.

When is your birthday? Mine is June 5th.

Loads of

 

[Blythe]

Briss - I'm sorry to hear you woke up feeling so sad maybe it is the birthday…maybe its the hormones or maybe its just that horrid place we go to sometimes.

You will start feeling better. I know how hopeless you feel but you have so much working for you. A great man that loves you and is working hard to get you pregnant, a regular cycle, a plan [Dr E and Dr R and NHS IVF] , a backup plan [Germany IVF] and the on-going possibility that it could happen any time. IT COULD HAPPEN THIS MONTH….why they heck not…there are girls out there getting pregnant with much less favourable odds and mad looking charts.

I'm sorry today is not a good day but i promise you will feel better soon

 

[Briss]

kits, thanks. I will be 38 in June, I was supposed to have 2-3 children by now and return back to work from my last maternity… Instead I am seeing yet another colleague off to maternity and am supposed to take on her work load as well (I am covering for one new mum already!) when is it going to be my turn?? quitting job is just not an option, I will end up going mental if I stay at home all day (I will probably end up going with no showers and wearing the same clothes for weeks …horrible stuff). it's not even my age cos many get pregnant even older but it's just I've been in this for 4 long years full time day after day with no progress whatsoever.

A friend who gave birth a couple of months ago just wrote that she has not seen me in a year and she managed to have a baby and buy a house in the meantime. She knows I was TTC years before she even thought of trying. was it supposed to be well meaning? don’t think so

Blythe, thank you. somehow you always find the right thing to say. you are right I do have a few things going for me so there is still hope. I hope this feeling will pass and I will feel more hopeful tomorrow

 

[kits]

Blythe, you always have such beautiful & encouraging words to say

And Briss, you're journey has been so long! You've got so much strength it's amazing. I can't even begin to imagine all you've been through.

Always praying for you ladies!!

Have a great Friday all

 

[Briss]

kits, I do not really have any strength left if I am honest it's just that there is no alternative. I have no choice but to carry on trying …

 

[gingmg]

Just wanted to stop in and say Thinking of you and sending

 

[Jazzbird]

Thinking of you lovely ladies, especially you Briss. It can and does happen frequently for people who have been trying for years. Don't give up. Xxx

 

[kits]

It's nice to see you ladies!

Come around more often

 

[kits]

How are ya doing ladies?

Blythe, how are ya? Hope things are well with ya hun

Briss, I know sometimes you're close to reaching the end of your tether, but trust me.. you're made of some really strong stuff!! I have a friend who's your age & gave up a while ago. You're definitely made of the good stuff & you deserve a baby or 3!

How are you liking the VIP FF? I got it during a Facebook promo they were having & bought the year sub for $24.99. I used to use Ovia, but I like FF so much more.

I know this isn't TTC related & none of you are probably interested but I thought I'd share this bit of info.

I'm not sure when, but it looks like I'm going to quit my job. It's so difficult to try living 2 life's. I have a normal* day job that I start around 11am & finish around 7ish pm. & I get excluded from almost all social activities because of my hours with my work friends. I then tend to work on Saturdays we have events on, make food on Wednesday nights for Poker & any other night for our Pool or Darts & Dominoes teams. Plus I work on Sundays when my OH goes away for whatever recreational activities he's interested in (tomorrow it's AirSoft, it used to be baseball). Friday nights we're both off but I'm usually exhausted & he needs to get back for midnight anyways. It's always been like this but it's been worse for the past year, in fact it was a lot worse as we're trying to run our own business.

I know some of you work really long hours & this may seem like nothing but the main thing is we barely have time for our relationship, and we truly have an amazing relationship that I don't want to loose.

One thing I've been thinking for a while is going into nursing (with more recently wanting to add radiography into that) so it looks like if I'm not too late to enroll I'll be going back to school in August. I'm so tired of my job. There isn't really room for advancement & the pay isn't that great. Plus I'm tired of SELL, SELL, SELL.. trying to convince people they need to buy products that they really don't need & I have definitely had enough of the copious amount of ass kissing that's involved. I'm like the least materialistic person ever. Why I got into this field is beyond me.

I looooove the idea of helping others. I tried to be a teacher but the time wasn't good & I was in a very bad relationship that made me feel incapable.

If somewhere during the path of this other new journey in my life I happen to get pregnant then that'd be absolutely amazing. We're definitely going to keep trying. Not sure what's happening this cycle I'm constantly clearing my mind of TWW thoughts, if I have another chem I don't want to know! I'm not trying to think about whether I'm pregnant or not, for this cycle ignorance shall be bliss!

Luckily the pub is our home so I still have security and with me quitting my job that means I can also help out with getting the kitchen up & running which means more money for us. My OH has sooo much on his plate that he can't seem to be able to get it up & running on his own. So we're loosing out on nice profit.

So we shall see... My sister is visiting for a few weeks in July so it'll only happen after that.

And on that note, I definitely need to get going, our Open mic Night has started!! Ahhh!!!!!

Sorry for my sharing.. I know it was a long post, but if I can't share this with you ladies, then who else can I share it with?

 

[gingmg]

Kits wow, big changes! I'm a nurse and would be happy to answer any of your questions. It is both rewarding and exhausting work, but i love it and cant really see myself doing anything different. My wife is starting school in sept for radiography. She has studied classical piano since she was a kid so its a big career change for her. She plays for the ballet and also teaches piano but as much as she loves music, its a hard life, unsteady pay ect. ect. so is changing careers completely. Sometimes, you just need a change.

 

[BBbliss]

Kits, I think it's a great idea! As I read your post I felt the decision is already made it's a great move into something more fulfilling and I also think it is important to be attentive and never take for granted a great relationship. If you are going to be happier all around, take the leap

And from what I've seen you are a very caring person so nursing will be good fit for you

 

[Briss]

Kits, I really like FF but I have not tried anything else. Mostly I used free FF and it was absolutely sufficient (they also give you free VIP for a few days every few months) but getting VIP is just little more entertaining cos you can see all your signs not just the main ones like temp/BD/CB/OPK. one thing I try to stay away from is browsing pregnancy charts. you get so drawn into this and start dreaming...

I actually thought both of you worked at your pub, it's really hard to have another job when you already have one. I do not think one person can run the pub, can he? I do not really know much about pubs but it's probably 24 hour work? Nursing sounds wonderful but isn't it a shift work? will you manage nursing and pub work?

afm, tried watching House M.D., another mistake with my negative mind I should not watch anything disease related ... love the main character though

 

[Blythe]

Kits - we spend most of our lives sleeping and working so get a bed you are comfortable in and a job you enjoy. Having said that, i have neither. Having the support/option of re-training is wonderful and if you are anything less than happy and challenged by your current work then my advice would be to do it. Briss has a very good point though re shift work and i would imagine there would be plenty of that throughout the training and first few years in the NHS.

It would be a dream for me to go back to college and retrain but we cannot support that between us. But i do love to hear and read about women retraining in their 30s/40s and beyond. I find it very inspiring.

Getting the kitchen off the ground would also be great…i would love to mess around with menus and see what works. Now i imagine that would be very rewarding and with the added bonus of helping out your OH too.

Briss - i have recently watched Bridget Jones diary [first one] and reignited my passion for a young hugh grant. I do like posh dirty-minded english boys….although in the past, i have found the reality to be quite disappointing.

i had all my hair cut off last week. I walked home feeling like a young linda evangelista but DH said i looked like elaine page…he was joking but it has stuck so now not so sure. Im having to ramp up the make up to compensate for the lack of hair…although i do think i suit short hair much better than long hair so hoping i will warm to it this week. I felt like a big change and have also been going through my possessions and taking lots to the charity shop. I always hold onto books etc to remind me of certain times/trips etc but i got rid of some and felt better for it.

How are you feeling - are you feeling better than you were earlier this week?

 

[Blythe]

Kits - one thing i was going to say is…don't put stuff off because you are TTC. I have spend the last 3.5 years doing that and actually if it had of happened everything would have just changed to fit in with it. There is always a way of making stuff work!

 

[kits]

Got waxed, went to pilates & am now enjoying my smoothie. That's the most productive I've been to myself in a looong time.

Oooo! Cutting your hair off! I like it I think this is what we need some changes, life refresh. Linda Evangelista is very sexy, I love all the hair colours she'd go for. Did you happen to do any new colours? Hmmm.. not sure how much of an Elaine Paige fan you are but I absolutely love her. I think she's so cute & I'm such a sucker for anything she sings, so either woman sounds like a compliment to me, heh. :wink:

I am constantly adding blue, red & purple bits to my hair, or at least this past year I have. I had bright red fringe but it faded out when I took the photo on my chart page. I call the colour changes my mid life crisis mode (no kids yet). But I did it too much that it started going green in bits so the salon said no more, so I'm a dark burnette for the time being. I also have really long hair. I'm dying to cut it short but I can get acne (only for the past 2 years, )on my back so I don't.

I never watched House Briss, but all the comments I ever heard is that it was really good & the main guy is an absolute psycho. Can't say it tickled my fancy very much. But then again I tend to watch more geeky stuff. The shows I tend to follow oth religiously or on & off are:

The Walking Dead (I love planning & joking about a zombie apolcalypse even though I don't exactly believe one will happen unless it happens in the form of I Am Legend)
The Originals
Agents of Shield (OH makes me, not that keen)
Friday Night Lights (it's about American High School Football)
Hollyoaks (if ever manange to catch it, twice this year)
Game of Thrones (only the first season)
Sex and the City (I feel like they're my best friends too!)
Made in Chelsea -> my guilty pleasure, I can't help it! I love how some of the women dress.
Star Trek
Mad Men (whenever I'm free & it's on)

I don't think you ladies will ever comprehend how geeky we really are

What are you interested in most with TV shows? I wonder if I can recommend any.

Regarding FF in all honesty, I look at charts & they all seem japanese to me. Especially mine. Especially since I think my thermometer is pretty whack. However what I do do is go to the 'Charts like mine' bit & then if I see more pregnancy charts than ovulatory then I get slightly happier. If I see more ovulatory then I'm thinking maybe not this time.

I actually added Grapefruit Juice onto my chart because I saw you do it

Blythe! I don't think you will ever realise how encouraging your words can be. If you're ever feeling down just re-read what you write to others. My mom's cancer surgeon had been a teacher all her life & then probably about 15 years ago she decided she wanted to be a cancer doctor so she went for it. She must be way into her late 50's or early 60's & she's absolutely amazing. She works so hard for her patients. She actually sparked my interest, I originally wanted to go into Oncology nursing but after my own personal experiences I'm much more into the midwifery and ob/gyn, with the radiography. My cousin has also gone back to school now but I think she may just be working on her masters rather than changing careers, not sure but it is full time & if she can do it then so can I! Right? I hope so! It is a scarey thought.

The 3 years of full time study will be difficult but at least I'll be working towards something good. And in the long run I think shift work can go along the pub work better than an office job. I'm going to contact a few uni's tomorrow to see what is or isn't available so I may just have to wait a year or 6 months to start. But I'd still quit my job.

I've given my OH a year & I think he's fully aware that he can't get the pub to where it needs to be on it's own. Luckily we're doing pretty well without having put all effort in (with mainly just him) but we know it could do more. The community is dying for us to open up our kitchen too. I make food for people randomly for fun and it's always gotten good feedback especially since I try to share my favourite Texas foods

By the way, I've been meaning to ask this for a while now but what brand of pre-natal vitamins do y'all take? I'm currently on Pregnacare but I'm thinking of switching as it make my pee really bright yellow. Like fluorescent yellow.

Thanks ladies, you're always so awesome to me!!!

Loads & loads & loads of

 

[kits]

Just saw your 2nd post Blythe, I think you're totally right. I don't want to waste any more time for 'the right time' as nothing ever gets done. I just want us to be happy. Life is way too short, too many die unexpectedly without having been happy or at least achieved what they want.

So pub & uni life it is for me! Plus loads of BD'ing! Going to take 2 weeks off while my sis is here & then say goodbye!

I've also been putting our wedding off due to ttc for so long now & it's not fair for either of us. I think May 22 2015 sounds like a good date. Whether I'm pregnant or not, full of baby fat or not.. I think we should aim for that.

Much love

 

[kits]

Kits wow, big changes! I'm a nurse and would be happy to answer any of your questions. It is both rewarding and exhausting work, but i love it and cant really see myself doing anything different. My wife is starting school in sept for radiography. She has studied classical piano since she was a kid so its a big career change for her. She plays for the ballet and also teaches piano but as much as she loves music, its a hard life, unsteady pay ect. ect. so is changing careers completely. Sometimes, you just need a change.

I just may hold you to that & pick your brains at some point! What type of nursing do you do?

Thank you!!!

 

[kits]

Oh!!! I also forgot to say I love Mr. Darcy. I sooo have a crush on Collin Firth. Not too keen on Daniel Cleever, hehe. I love it when Mr. Darcy tried to beat up Daniel Cleever in the water fountain (i think it's the 2nd film)

I love those type of films, Bridget Jones, Love Actually...

I need a movie night with all of those. I can't wait until Christmas!

 

[Briss]

Blythe, I never fancied hugh grant actually, I do not know why. he is cute though. Love Bridget Jones diary! I've heard they are making 3rd movie?

It's so good that you had your hair cut!! so refreshing. I do it from time to time and always feel so good, like a new beginning My hair do not look that good so i have been considering cutting them but then I really want to grow them long. it suits me but only when my hair look healthy which is never

Kits, I love Sex and the City! watched it so many times I probably know it by heart by now I watch Big bang theory, one of the characters reminds me of my DH...

I am taking pregnacare conception before O and just normal pregnacare after O.

 

[gingmg]

Kit- I take care of kids in an intensive care unit. Quite busy and faced paced, but not all nursing needs to be. I used to work on a pediatric oncology and bone marrow transplant floor. Ask away anytime.