Confused and feeling sad :-(

Well im mega confused today.

Thought I was on CD16 of a new cycle yesterday after my ectopic in November anyway started bleeding last night and heavier today so presume AF has kicked in, all I can think is its my period does explain why my tests on OPK werent showing anything.

So back to CD2 however had rung doc and I can use my clomid on CD5 to 9 if I wish this cycle so gonna chat to OH and see.

Am sad today as well cant help but think about my angels. My old man who i havent had much of a relationship with for over 30 years, (mum is married to my step dad). I have him on facebook and he sent me a message and it upset me.. just got me thinking about love and life lost....

Really trying not to be down but it just isnt fair, I want my babies back I dont care which one just one of them.

I wish I could just snap out of this spell im going through....