Consuming me!!!

[Tasha]

My every waking thought is of TTC/having a baby. In fact my every thought, including those whilst I sleep is the same. I am driving myself nuts, and probably my DH too. Last night I wouldnt let him sleep until we had discussed names Then when I finally went to sleep I dreamt of babies Then two hours later I woke up and not only was I convinced I felt pregnant (ovulation was either yesterday or the day before) but I could not get back to sleep as all I could visualise was sperm meeting egg

I hate that this has taken over my life though, please tell me I am not alone?

 

[Minimin]

Hey Tasha, I didnt want to read and run. You are not alone. I think anyone who has had a loss also is EVEN MORE consumed. I spend hours of my day (I finished working in Dec) trowling through these posts for comfort, trowling websites for information, and have a whole type set of tools to help me conceive. I am sorry you have had to suffer loss'. I had an ectopic back in Sept 09 and a MC 09/01/10. The journey for us is made even harder. I do try to get out of the house, exercise and start gardening to take my mind off it- I end up back to trowling though

you are prefectly normal and it is perfectly understable after what you have been through. Be kind to yourself and

Minimin

 

[Littlemo]

Hi Tasha,

Ur not alone all i do is think about babies , we're been trying for 6 years and got no where we spent 6 grand on IVF and got pregnant in dec i was over the moon finally fort it was my time, Had two early scans at 6 weeks and 8 weeks seen th heart beat away and the little one only to then be told yesterday at 12 week scan baby had gone i still dont know how to deal with it but all i can think about is babies its took over my life for so long i lost xxx

 

[Tasha]

Hi Tasha,

Ur not alone all i do is think about babies , we're been trying for 6 years and got no where we spent 6 grand on IVF and got pregnant in dec i was over the moon finally fort it was my time, Had two early scans at 6 weeks and 8 weeks seen th heart beat away and the little one only to then be told yesterday at 12 week scan baby had gone i still dont know how to deal with it but all i can think about is babies its took over my life for so long i lost xxx

I am so sorry for your loss sweetie It is so unfair, it took you so long and then is snatched away.

 

[Littlemo]

thanks Tasha, lets hope its our time soon x x x

 

[Serene123]

During the day I'm fine, but I always have a dream about being pregnant x

 

[goddess25]

Tasha you are most certainly not alone. I think alot of women become consumed with it all but i think its especially worse after you have had a loss. I hope you get your BFP soon. Huge hugs

 

[chocolate]

Yep, its all I think about! Think I need to dedicate next month to thinking about other stuff and just write down symptoms and temps. then log them at the end of cycle!

 

[Chilli]

I'm with you here Tasha - only I don't think about it consciously because I think I'm to scared to - but it's there - hanging about at the back of my mind ALL the time. I think I've run out of PMA too now I'm just fed up of it and other people with their tackless conversations about unwanted/uncared for pregnancies. I just want to feel normal again!

 

[Nosy_Cow]

Oh I wish I could say you are alone but I'd be lying! I think about it 24/7! When I wake up on the day my period is due and see it's not there in the morning I get excited and think that I'm pregnant! Then I come on later in the day and am devastated! I hate doing pregnancy tests when I'm late because they are always

I was esp sad this month as it's Chloe's 6 months tomorrow and I thought she'd sent me a baby but nope turned up 3 days late. I was heartbroken. All my OH keeps saying is "We've got plenty of time!" All I keep thinking is "Why aren't I pregnant yet? Maybe there's something wrong with me! Maybe I'll never have another baby!" It's so unfair.

Then I have days when I'm taking my folic acid and think what's the f*cking point? I'm never going to get pregnant! I still take it I just think it's pointless! I just want Chloe back - that way I wouldn't have to worry about TTC anymore

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[Ten]

Tasha - you're not alone at all! I think everyone who's had a difficult time gets a bit obsessed over the whole thing. Perfectly natural. Like Minimin said, be kind to yourself.

Littlemo - so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.