Oh mano, how to cope? Find a friend who is willing to listen and not tell you they understand. That's been my biggest help, is someone who just tells me they are sorry and get angry, sad, mad, or whatever else I feel too. My very best friend is my emotional support system going through infertility. She has never said "I understand" or "I know how you feel." Nothing gets to me more than someone who says those things or says things like "it will get better" or "it will happen in time." Those don't bring any comfort to me. Allow yourself to feel the way you do. I felt jealousy, envy, pressure, anger, depression, and none of these are who I am. Infertility is the largest, most difficult problem I've ever had to face, and it has brought out the worst in me. I'm willing to admit that. Just allow yourself to feel and if anyone tries to unjustify your feelings just know that infertility is a grieving process. You are allowed to feel and have down right nasty thoughts about other women who have what you so desperately want. I don't like feeling this way but I've come to terms and recently too, that this is what it's like being human, we can't be perfect all the time and never have negative thoughts about ourselves or others. It is OKAY to feel!!!
