oh hon I am so sorry...I'm kind of in the same boat as you so know how you are feeling. Mum died of cancer almost four years ago, and this January Dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer, given 6 months to live. Just afterwards we found out we were pregnant, and it gave my dad something to fight for, especially when we found out it was twins.
three weeks ago we found out that he had reacted well to the chemo and had bought himself a few extra months, maybe even a year...two days later I went into premature labour at 23 weeks and lost my girls.
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone...dealing with a parent (or anyone) who has cancer can be a horrible, stressful, infuriating, scary, frustrating experience. Dealing with that whilst going through what we have, losing our precious babies, is unimaginable.
hugs to you and your family, and if you want to talk about anything, I'm here. xxx