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My beautiful rainbow baby made her apperance July 1st. I remember with my first princess feeling overwhelmed and helpless, and sitting up nights crying. This go around I'm trying to sleep when the baby does, I'm going stir crazy as I also work from home ( haven't gone back yet) but on top of everything. Fob who is a over the road truck driver left shortly after lo was born, he's been saying he feels like I'm different and have been since the baby was born. My mom believes something is wrong with me as I sleep after I drop my oldest off at summer camp with the baby.
Now let me say, I've had to adjust from living on my own (getting sick and having to go home) sharing a room with my oldest, then I get pregnant and it's 3 of us in one room at my mother's house. Fob is gone and doesn't come back for months at a time ... In addition to being here the schools are awful but because I haven't gotten into a routine I have little choice but to send my princess to the school district because I have no help and feel like homeschooling again isn't an option. I asked fob to come home but he likes what he does , I asked to be in a better school district for our oldest and that hasn't happened because he has different things popping up.
I feel abandoned in a sense and alone, I can't cry because I'm tired but I have to get my shit together and get on my feet to get out of here, it's hard for me to ask for help and when I finally did I felt like nothing was done, that makes me shut down.
Am j depressed, I don't freaking know but my mom judging me for wanting snack cakes ( didn't eat any during my pregnancy) and him stating I'm acting funny pisses me off!
Now let me say, I've had to adjust from living on my own (getting sick and having to go home) sharing a room with my oldest, then I get pregnant and it's 3 of us in one room at my mother's house. Fob is gone and doesn't come back for months at a time ... In addition to being here the schools are awful but because I haven't gotten into a routine I have little choice but to send my princess to the school district because I have no help and feel like homeschooling again isn't an option. I asked fob to come home but he likes what he does , I asked to be in a better school district for our oldest and that hasn't happened because he has different things popping up.
I feel abandoned in a sense and alone, I can't cry because I'm tired but I have to get my shit together and get on my feet to get out of here, it's hard for me to ask for help and when I finally did I felt like nothing was done, that makes me shut down.
Am j depressed, I don't freaking know but my mom judging me for wanting snack cakes ( didn't eat any during my pregnancy) and him stating I'm acting funny pisses me off!
