Difficult time lately.

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I've not been sure whether to make this thread or not as I worry about burdening others and also sounding like a moaning minnie so I'm sorry if it comes across that way.

When I started TTC 17 months ago, I was relatively healthy. In the past I had had chronic pain but it had seemed to have gone so it felt like the right time to TTC.

Now we are 17 months in and for the last 6 or so months my health has been declining again. It's got to the point 10 days ago that I ended up in hospital on morphine because my pain has got so bad and from there it's kind of spiralled.
I can barely manage food which isn't a worry in terms of weight loss because I'm a rather big lady already but is a worry for nutrients etc and unpleasant! I'm also totally fatigued doing anything.

My Doctor thinks I have M.E. and I am also due to have another operation soon to see whether the pelvic pain can be explained by endometriosis which I have had done in the past.

I am so sad at the moment because I know that TTC is probably not the right thing to do anymore but after 17 months, I'm absolutely heartbroken.
I'd only recently got the Doctor to listen to me in terms of fertility treatment and now with all this health stuff, I feel like it's going to be abandoned and I worry how long it will take for them to listen to me if we stopped for a while.
I used to have the mirena coil which really helped with the pelvic pain but obviously no use if TTC and obviously if I agree to have it put back in, no TTC and I am so scared that when we do take it out, they will make me wait another 12 months before doing further investigation again.

I am also very, very aware that I would not want to put a child through seeing their Mummy very unwell even if I have a supportive partner, it's not fair.

It's just so scary and I feel really upset about it all. I'm not sure what I'm looking for this thread as such because I know nobody can tell me what to do etc but I guess I would really appreciate some support if at all possible?

I'm sorry if I haven't explained things very well and thank you in advance for any kind words xxx

 

[froggyfrog]

First of all, you don't sound like a moaning minnie! Your concerns are certainly valid!! And this is a place for support, as we have all had our own roller coaster journeys, so we can definitely all identify with the same goal! Im not really sure what I can suggest or say besides hang in there! Im not familiar with m.e
What does that stand for? When do you find out if you have endo? Has your dh had an SA? Maybe if you met with your fertility specialist and talked about your past and the pain ect., you could lay down a plan for your future?

 

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Thank you for your reply Froggy, it means a lot

M.E is chronic fatigue syndrome which basically at this point means I am in constant pain, always feel like I have the flu sort of thing and fatigue to the point of struggling to have a bath/brush teeth even with normal sleep. It's so horrible and wow, I hate it but of course can't change it so trying to focus on just managing it!

That's a really good point to try and plan things with a fertility specialist. I am in the UK but I might see if my GP can give me some advice or reassurance at least.

I'm seeing the gynae about the endometriosis next week and then they will discuss when to do the operation although I imagine that will be next year sometime due to waiting times.

OH had a SA and he apparently had 'awesome' sperm haha, he was so happy so at least that's good news.

xx

 

[MrsHudson]

I'm so sorry to hear you are going through all of this. I'm sure it's absolutely heart wrenching. I can't really give you any advice but I certainly hope the best for you.