I feel like I'm losing it. In a week, it will have been exactly 3 years since I lost my first. I had a second miscarriage, but for some reason that one doesn't bother me as much as my first. Probably because I potentially caused it. I'm not sure. But it's been three years! I have a baby girl laying in my lap that I love more than words can say! I have a beautiful stepdaughter and my OH is my best friend and so much more. I have a wonderful life.....and all I can think about is my Gracie. That I want her back, that I wish I had never lost her. It does get better....right? I do pretty well most of the year, but this next week is going to be awful. I've been depressed already for the last week, and I know it's just gonna get worse.