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I just can't get happy...I tried everything and I put on this phony smile and fake ass emotion called happy, when inside I am dying I miss her so much and I just keep saying when is this going to be over, i know this emotion of complete emptiness and missing her will never leave me and it scares the shit outta me...
I didn't realize how hard this was going to be, i thought I would be fine , but I'm not.. All the mommies decorated their babies graves where Ava is buried and it looks beautiful, i am going today to leave some presents for her.
My God why has this happened to us and why are we left here to suffer so muchI am better but these feelings never leave me and she should be here with her family for Christmas.... Why isn't she. I just miss Ava so much and my one wish would be that my heart heals, I just wish it would stop hurting so much.
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I didn't realize how hard this was going to be, i thought I would be fine , but I'm not.. All the mommies decorated their babies graves where Ava is buried and it looks beautiful, i am going today to leave some presents for her.
My God why has this happened to us and why are we left here to suffer so muchI am better but these feelings never leave me and she should be here with her family for Christmas.... Why isn't she. I just miss Ava so much and my one wish would be that my heart heals, I just wish it would stop hurting so much.
Thanks for listening