Dreading next month

[Kitsch]

Next month would have been when the LO I lost was due. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about it. I've started feeling down and I think that's why, I know it's looming on the horizon and I hate to think how bad I will feel when it's actually November. Days when I feel good and I'm looking forward/ getting all excited about my current pregnancy I then feel guilty. Like I've forgotten my other LO. I'm so confused. I don't want to bring it up with my husband as I don't want to have to put a downer on him or anything, I just feel so conflicted.

 

[Tournesol]

Hi Kitsch, I'm sorry for your loss.

You mustn't feel guilty for being excited about your pregnancy, of course you haven't forgotten your lost LO and your haven't replaced them either. But life goes on.
It's normal to feel sad and confused, you are allowed to grieve.
Stay strong.

 

[MommaDucky]

I'm in my due date month for our last angel. That baby was due Oct 25th, and as it gets closer its been very hard. I've not been at the end of the pregnancy dealing with this before. I'm hoping Oct speeds by and I can get this little boy out safe.

 

[ttc1soon]

My due date with my second m/c was November 15th so I understand. I was due with my first pregnancy in June and my mom came out because she had planned on being here when I was having the baby and with her here I felt I had to ignore the day and just act like everything was normal. It was hard because I was so sad, especially since I had also just had my second m/c a few months before then. I know i'll be sad again around when our second baby was due but my husband and I like to think that now that we are pregnant with twins we were given back our lost babies.

 

[Leinzlove]

I just passed my EDD for my Angel on October 6. I had a MMC at 9w2d. It was very hard, I cried all day.

It was harder watching close friends having thier babies. I was happy for them, but cried because I wanted my Angel and I wanted my baby now.

It's hard but you'll get through it. I feel relief now that the date has passed. I released balloons.

 

[Kellen]

Today is my birthday and my EED from my miscarriage in February. I completely understand the conflicting emotions. I am normally so happy to be having a little girl in February, but I cannot help but think: "I should be in labor right now, not waiting another 17 weeks..." It is terribly hard and I've been crying. I don't want to burden DH with this because I don't want to spoil his happiness. I am oddly glad that others have this same feeling.