End of our journey?

[MrsF]

Well, another month, another step further away...

third round of clomid unsuccessful, AF put in an appearance last week. Not coping very well at all really. Not seeing FS for another 5 weeks and we have no more clomid to take. Finally told work about everything - kinda had to as my coping mechanisms all went to pot and couldn't stop crying. I've not been in to work for a few days, i get up and get ready to go in, but i just cant stop crying. Today's been ok, relatively speaking, so hoping tomorrow i can go in.

I know i cant cope with a stronger dose of clomid, and i can't handle the disappointment month after month. I'm finding it hard to sort out the thoughts in my head tbh, my friends have been so lovely, but i'm finding i really dont know where to start in talking about it.

Has anyone been offered, or asked about seeing, the fertility counsellor? I'm thinking of asking at my next appointment.

i think i'm starting the 'it's just not gonna happen' journey now - i know IVF will be our next option, but i just have a gut feeling it's not gonna happen.

So sorry ladies for bringing you down, but thank you for listening x

 

[bellazucca]

 

[NeyNey]

 

[chefamy1122]

 

[BizyBee]

We are always here to listen...

 

[JASMAK]

I have always wanted to see a fertility counsellor, but here they are quite expensive. Apparently they are great tho.

 

[CurlySue]

I suppose I've had "it's not going to happen" in my head for the past two years. I still have it now. It's why I've always been wary of IVF. Seems like a hell of a lot of money for something that has such a crappy success rate.

Call it gut feeling, I don't know, but my gut feelings are rarely wrong and I've never, ever been able to imagine holding my own child.

Things might look up for you though. I am at the same position as you, right now. Four months of Clomid and it didn't work, didn't even do its job, so now I am just waiting. Waiting, as always.

 

[Brambletess]

Hi

I think you should go and see a counsellor if you can as soon as possible, it sounds like you are finding it hard to cope and counsellors are there to help you find a way through and develop coping strategies. Grab any help you can as what you are going through is extreemly tough emotionally. Take your time and be kind to yourself.

Don't worry too much about the gut feeling its not going to happen. I have it as well and others have also mentioned they do. I think its just part of the whole process. IVF is not a last resort it can be the start of the journey towards having a child and is for many people. xxx Good luck with all.

 

[Bexy]

Mrs F...so sorry you're feeling so down. I think lots of ladies on this site can 100% hear where you're coming from.

I too am on my third and final cycle of Clomid, AF due end of this week and I know she's on her way as I feel bloated all over my body like usual!

I'd be interested to hear whether anyone had some good experience with counselling as its something I might look into - I just can't shake the feeling that it will never happen and not having a baby will completely change my future plans...

Anyway thinking of you and hope all goes well at your next consult

xx

 

[Pinkgirl]

 

[Mynxie]

if you wanna talk u know, I'm here, similar boat n all that

 

[armywifettc]

 

[Helen]

Hi

I saw a fertility counsellor (admittedly as part of the IVF process) and it was FANTASTIC! It was totally exhasuting but the opportunity to rant and rave and scream and cry without guilt about the total unfairness and unjustness of our situation and to blurt out all the hateful things you think about other people without being judged was so liberating. I cannot say enough how much it helped me and for someone to convince me that the things I was thinking were perfectly normal and rational and reasonable was wonderful. It gave me the strength to carry on.

I'm sure that even if you can't be referred to a counsellor by your FS that your GP would do it (bit of a waiting list) or maybe try the local Well Woman Centre.

Hope that helps

 

[hayley352]

im not sure that ivf will be your next option. i am on my 6th round of clomid and when i went for my appointment on friday they told me they prescribe it up to a year. They have now booked me in for a lap and dye. Have you had this done yet?

3 months on clomid is not alot,keep your chin up hun. x