This baby was definitely no 50 Shades conception--yuck! Not interested in those books in the least. He was very planned though. We conceived on the first try back in December, but sadly lost that little girl (we know because of chromosome testing) to a MMC in February. My due date would have been Sept 4th, so I desperately wanted to be pregnant again when that date passed this year (thank goodness I was!). I had enough courage recently to go back and look up some of the ladies who had Sept due dates with me. It was hard to do but I was happy to see that most have had healthy beautiful babies in the last few weeks.
After my D&C in Feb we started trying again as soon as the 2 week doctor ordered healing period was up. Every month that I got negative HPTs and my period showed was so heartbreaking for me...I wouldn't get out of bed for days.

In reality it wasn't all that long (almost 4 months), but it seemed like an eternity to me. When we conceived in May I remember crying because DH had to go out of town for work, and I was due to ovulate any day. I was so upset that we had missed another month. Turns out, we got it anyways!