Well I've had a nice chat with OH and decided that im going to grit my teeth through the pain of having sex. He isnt so keen but I told him that Im desperate lol - and I need something doing.
Is it normal to be scared about sex - I feel nervous about him getting home, its bizarre, got butterflies in my tummy as if its my first time or something! Was going to get DD to bed early, put on my sexy nightie fire up the old aromatherapy candles and have a nice time enjoying each other but in actual fact i see it going a bit more like - ouch, that hurts, having a cry, trying to manouvere my enormous bump into a position that I can at least open my legs slightly without my spd being agony, him not even being aroused by how hideous I am at the moment and it just being a total horrible disaster!
Oh god - why am I even bothering???
I took dd to play at her friends house for a couple of hours this afternoon and have a natter with a friend. I had a stretch of 10 minutes where I had intense period pains through my back and stomach and I thought something was going to start - and then nothing since.
I know its asking a lot to go into labour on my due date. I just desperately dont want to have to make it to thursday and have to see the midwife again... so I can have my tummy felt and my urine checked again and be told 'not long now' and my blood pressure checked and all the usual stuff - I dont think im even going to bother going actually, if she wants she can come and do a home visit, Im going to tell her im too sore to make it to the surgery.
Sending you all apologies - I am not normally this much of a moaning faced misery but really am struggling to be positive at the moment.
Also - the spd has got me into a state regarding labour - im terrified of having to push the baby out given how bad the pain is now!