feel so sh*tty!!!

[manchester1]

argh.
i just feel so sh*tty!!!! i cant concieve because i have pcos because im overweight... or maybe im over weight because i have pcos...

and i feel sh*t because i havent lost weight/cant lose weight/struggle to lose weight.

i feel like i cant justify being in this group as i feel its my own fault for not being able to concieve...its not like not knowing why you are infertile, or male factor etc...i have a way of 'possibly curing' my infertility and i dont take advantage. i cry because i cant concieve and i cry because i feel such a failure!!!

i just wanted to rant that. i feel such a dissapointment to my husband every time i eat anything, but i just cant stop...no self control.


anyhow im hopefully hsving a gastric band in november...i didnt rly want it to come to that but i guess i have no choice ....


sorry to bore u wit all that!

 

[sparkle83]

*hugs*

PCOS will make it very hard (and sometimes impossible) to lose weight, even when you'e being as strict as you can. It is not your fault.

 

[kstan]

Ar hun, sorry yr feelin shitty!!! Big hugs to you!! Its not yr fault. I am 9st with PCOS and TTC forever! Dont feel guilty at all x x

 

[rachelle1975]

Oh hun
Don't beat yourself up - we might have MF but i've been told i can start IVF but only if i lose more weight... and despite knowing that could get me what i want i can't help but self-sabotage!
Sometimes it's easier to work on our heads before we work on our bodies - hope you do okay xx

 

[Kiki09]

Dont be too hard on yourself hun, pcos is responsible for a lot of what we go through, weight can get in the way of getting pregnant yes, but that does not mean that its always the case, so dont beat yourself up, it could just be down to pcos, nothing else... I have it and I am not overweight, yet we are not succeeding either, I am now on clomid and onto my 2nd round...

lots and lots of

 

[silarose28]

Losing weight is soooooo difficult! Lots of love to you. xxxxx

 

[MillieMoo]

Really sorry that your feeling so crap but like everyone else has already said it's definately not your fault!!

I'm sure your husband doesn't think your a failure at all and your not!

 

[beauty]

Arh huni dont beat yourself up!! PCOS and losing weight is so hard, i have been eating healthy for the past 4months with no exercise and only managed to loose just over half a stone!! (I cant even say where that has come from because clothes still feel the same)

The only thing is i have hsg in october booked before the gyno with give me any medication and i am determinded to loose another 7lbs before that appointment in 4 weeks.. (even if i dont get to the 7lbs) then anywhere near that will be a bonus!!

Have you read that diet book re pcos?? It bascially lists the food which are quite good for pcos suffers to eat, i picked it up on ebay for £3.. might be worth a read.

All i can say is dont be so hard on yourself, its so hard to loose weight with pcos well all know that who suffer with it..

Keep your chin up babes xxxx

 

[manchester1]

thanks so much for your support...

i understand people of ideal weight can have pcos and infertility probs, they dont have a possible way of 'curing' it...where as if your overweight you do have a choice...you could lose weight!

i dunno rly...i feel really down today... and my DH best friends wife is 6 months preg, they were only trying for 3 months...so now he kinda understands how i feel when i see all my friends getting preg, he nvr new how i felt..

i feel more guilty now. xxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[beauty]

Hey huni
I felt down for months now and found out my sis is pregnant with her 2nd and my best mate after only ttc for few months!! Believe u me i feel down!!

I went off bnb for a while, i am fed up of feeling like a jealous green eyed monster and decided to give myself some more PMA.. And so far its working (a bit)

I was so sick of feeling bad about ttc and havin all these negitive thoughts of ttc and any issues i have thinkin oh my god, wot if i have this or wot if i have that!! Sometimes bnb doesnt help especially when you read things and think god wot if i have that (well i do anyway, and no doctor has confirmed anything apart from pcos so i need to relax on that front.. always thinking the worse i gotta stop doing it)..

Only advice to give is try to relax and maybe take a break from here or even ttc for a month or two (i dont mean break maybe dont temp or opk etc) take some time off from here and relax.. it really isnt good to beat yourself up.. (says me i do it all the time) but i am starting to feel bit more positive to be honest and thats only cause i was fed up of feeling down!!

TTC changed me and i changed into someone i didnt like, so i decided to pick myself up and be the old happy self again before ttc!! If you actually think positive and think positive thoughts it does actually make u feel bit better..

Just think of the baby you will have and how happy you are gonna be once you get that long awaited BFP.. honestly just give yourself some pma its worth a try i am trying!!

xx

 

[MissMonty]

Please don't feel guilty - easy to say I know - you are not at fault, trying to loose weight is very difficult even more so when TTC, wishing you lots of luck for the future x

 

[manchester1]

thanks all for ur rly nice messages.
starting to realise its a new cycle...even without clomid and there is a chance i could get bfp this month!

going to start using opk's from today and see what happens!

its 7 am and im awake, had a rly screwed up sleeping patter, coz spent most of yesterday crying (!?) had an awful headache, fell asleep at 7.15, woke at 10 and still awake at 7 am!

good job i aint got no plans for today!!!

 

[manchester1]

argh. im panicking. i no a few people who have just got married or are getting married and are all ttc as soon as. they are all good friends and are all the type of people with really regular periods blah blah and i can just imagine them all getting pregnant within 1 or 2 months of trying. and they no weve been trying for 18months. its making me deprssd just thnking about it!argh

 

[MillieMoo]

Try not to worry too much. I really feel your pain but it might not happen straight away for them and it may turn out that you fall pregnant first!

 

[manchester1]

this should be my rant thread. just having a chat with my neigbour...whos due in 3 weeks
shes talking about decorating the nursery. they were ttc 6 months less than me