Feeling a bit down

[Ellianna]

Sorry guys, I think I'm gona have a moan.

I know I'm really lucky and I have lots to be thankful for but I'm just feeling really down tonight
I tried on my clothes for my interview on friday and it just made me feel really depressed and upset. I so so want this place and I know I could still take it but it's just all going to be so so hard with a new baby if I go this year and even if I go next year the baby will be 14 months old. It's a three year full time course, and it will mean moving away from nearly all of my family and me and James finding somewhere to live that we can afford. We're gona have to find some way of James working and me going to uni and the baby being cared for as well. Can I really do it?

Then me and James had like a massive arguement, completely my fault. I was all ready really pissed off and I just snapped at him and had a massive go at him and now I feel really bad about it
He's stormed off to one of his friends and left me to deal with my bloody hormones (not that I really blame him. I would have stormed off it I had had to deal with me!)

Sorry guys, I just feel a bit down about stuff. I know I'm doing the right thing but its just so HARD sometimes not to think about the stuff I'm gona miss out on. I feel really bad because I know I'm really lucky to have James by my side and he's just been so supportive, I couldn't ask for him to be any better but I just seem to be snapping at everything he says or does lately. I really love him and I hate hurting him like this but I swear I can't stop! He's been patient so far but I know he's getting really sick of it.


Moan over girlies, sorry about that.
Hope you're all ok

Ellianna
x

 

[UptonGirl]

hiya ellianna - oh dear you arent having a good night!poor thing.i dont know you im afraid but saw ur post and thought id say hi and sorry ur feeling down and then i noticed something pretty cool........ive just set my ticker thing up and we have the same due date, i think?!?, im july 11th? very exciting. we should stay in touch.only found one other with the exact same due date.whats this interview for, a uni course? which one?im off to bed in a min but will check back tomorrow. hope things brighten up for you in the morning.take care hun, xxx

 

[Ellianna]

July 12th, very very close! Mb my ticker is a little bit out?
We should definitely stay in touch, let me know how everything is going.

Thank you huni, I'm just feeling a bit rubbish
I know I have lots to be thankful for but I can't manage to be thankful for it atm!
My interview is Manchester Uni Social Work BA, and I'v just set my heart on doing it now, which I know I shouldn't have but I couldn't help it.
Hopefully things will look better in the morning
And even though James has buggered off I still have bump to keep me company! lol
Thanks for ur thoughts sweetie
x

 

[AquaDementia]

Your university probably has a daycare program for students with babies and I am sure they can offer some financial assistance as well.

Don't get discouraged by everything, you can do it for sure.

I am finishing my masters degree and having a baby at the same time. They gave me a tuition free extension and a helpful grant, so there is definitelly a way.

It may seem incredibly difficult right now, but what is important is getting accepted to the University. Once you are their student it will be much easier to go on a leave if you have to and to get support. Just prepare yourself well for the interview and good luck.

 

[Sweetie]

Thinking of you and hoping that you are feeling a bit better. Will keep my fingers crossed for you about the whole school thing. Good Luck.

 

[PstolPcknMoma]

Awwe sweetheart, I have those nights to, suddenly your post makes me feel
not so alone! =) im sure you guys will work all these silly hormone moments
out. We all have them, dont we ladies?

 

[Tam]

Apologise to your OH for your mood swings and explain to him you have no control over what you do at times it is all hormone related, but you do try your best and hate the fact you are not in control of your moods!

There is a lot to think about when you have a baby and you want to go to Uni, talk it thru properly with your OH and see how you both feel about it......it might be worth holding off a year or 2, unless you both feel you can do it beforehand.

Good Luck hun & I hope you are feeling better now! x