feeling alone in a crowd.....

[hopefull85]

Yesterday was Thanksgiving and of course we all got together at my parents place. I am the 4th child out of 6. And as I sat there looking around I realized that I was the only one there who didnt have kids. I held back the tears cause i didnt want to make a scene. And again today I was put in the same situation. Its not fair. Even my 19 year old niece has a child. One of my younger brothers is only a step dad because his wife has two kids from a previous marriage and her tubes are clamped, but they dont live with the kids my sister in laws parents have custody of her kids because she dont care to raise them thats a whole other story. Anyways tonight that brother was sitting there beside me saying haha i hate kids cause he was playing with his child that was being hyper and then he looked at me a said " you better be glad you cant have kids" and I all could do was just stare at him. I have no other words to say to anyone anymore. My husband works offshore and is gone 28 days so when I am put in those situations and have to come home to an empty house its hits me harder. Its just not fair

 

[Emmi]

Oh my - how awful and insensitive of your brother. Big hugs to you as it just doesn't get any easier and people just don't understand what we go through at all. When I am in an uncomfortable situation which is a lot these days -I make my excuses to leave early. I am sick of the crappy comments that people feels it's their place to say to me and I just cant stand it anymore. We would do anything to be a mummy yet people constantly tell me that it's not all that it's cracked up to be. Makes me want to scream.....

You are not alone and when you feel lonely - come and talk hear.



x

 

[tamithomas]

I'm fascinated that you were able to keep your cool. For me it would have been impossible. People are such jerks