Feeling desperate... How do you deal with it?

[Butterfly89]

Anyone else ever get so down they feel completely hopeless? I feel like I want to quit my job, stop eating, stop going out of the house.. and just lock myself away until I'm old and grey. I feel like its all pointless. I feel sick 3 weeks a month from hormones and periods but yet I can't get pregnant.

What do you do when you feel this down? Or is this even normal, lol? It's not about PMS or hormones, just plain sad and disappointed every month. I've tried listing good things about not being a mom yet, fun things you can't do when pregnant, and other things to do with your life. But none of them seem really that good to me anyway. Maybe I just need better ideas.

 

[whimesy3]

I feel the exact same way. Its very depressing. I'm so impatient too. This is my first month TTC & I can feel AF coming. She's due monday. So I'm just having a glass of wine, I know its terrible LOL, but it helps me to relax. I hope you feel better. You don't have any problems such as PCOS or anything, do you?

 

[manduh726]

I am feeling the exact same way. I put on a happy face for the world and hubby but inside I feel like I am slowly dieing. I am usually a happy go lucky person. This is just killing me.

 

[Butterfly89]

At least we aren't alone. That helps a bit. Sometimes I feel crazy because I get so upset and down about it, but I guess its normal.

I don't know if I have PCOS. I have a ton of symptoms of hormonal issues like painful, heavy periods, I'm a bit furrier than some people I know lol, tons of hair loss from my head, but regular cycles and BBTing seems normal so far... My old doctor claimed my hormonal test results were normal, but would not give them to me.. She said she would have them printed, but never did. Oh well. I am getting retested for everything next week hopefully as I finally got a new doctor. And I have a back-up appointment at a fertility clinic at the end of next month.

Hopefully I will get answers! But its not really any consolation since I know I will never afford fertility treatments and I won't get DH to cooperate as he doesn't believe in using them... Spiritual reasons.. :/ Plus adoption is so expensive and since I'm young, they'd never let me.

Oh well.. I am trying to figure out a new goal in life to stay motivated for... well, anything. ^^