Feeling Guilty....

[borntobeamum]

Why do I feel so guilty.

So met some of the girls last night in the local pub for a few drinks, (first drink since before xmas and before Gillian). and first night out since she left us, I dont know why, but I felt so guilty for enjoying myself and having a nice night out.

It was the first time I had seen a couple of the girls, but they were great, they all knew it was not the time or place to talk about anything, but all gave me a hug and said they were there for me.

After a couple of drinks I relaxed a bit, but then at the end of the night, I felt so guilty for having a good time, I shout be 21 weeks, have a big belly, but instead I was having a good time having a few drinks. I know it probably sounds silly.

got home and cryed my eyes out.

 

[Aidedhoney]

You poor thing bi8g hug to you xxxx

I founbd part of the grieving process for me was the guilt of having fun, if i found myself to be smiling or laughing i felt terrible, but i know now that as harsh as it sounds we have to try and get on with things, just because me laugh and smile on the outside doesnt mean its tearing us apart inside xx Try and not feel bad honey xxx

 

[kiwi_gal]

awww sweetie ((((HUGS))))

i think its normal to feel the way you felt....so let it all out when you need to but dont let this discourage you to go out again with your friends, i think its great that you have such wonderful friends and that you had a great night out...its just what we need sometimes

 

[AlwaysPraying]

Not silly at all. I had my first drink in 15 weeks tonight and it tasted great, and felt great. And I resented every moment of it. I should be 15 weeks and 3 days today, not drinking and having my "period".

It's all part of the process, which doesn't help or make it easier. I think we should all live full and happy lives though. Our babies deserve to have strong proud mothers to represent them.

 

[bklove]

You didn't do anything wrong, and I think you have to remind yourself of that. Its ok to try to feel good, and to feel good, your angel i'm sure wants to see you happy again.