LadyLovenox
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I have an almost 2.5 year old and a 3 month old. Before baby was born, ds was my whole life. Every minute. I'm a sahm so he is very attached to me. He has done exceptionally well sharing my attention w baby brother. My guilt comes from two things.
1. I go to bed every single night feeling like one or the other got the short end of the stick. If i spent a lot of time w ds 1, i feel bad, that ds 2 isnt getting the same newborn coddling and bonding ds1 got. If i spend too much time oohing and ahhing over ds 2, i almost feel like I've cheated on ds 1 . I cry almost every night feeling like i cant give either of them 100%
2. Ds 1 is starting to drive me crazy w the terrible twos and i feel like I'm not enjoying my one on one time w him even when i do get it. Is that normal? It makes me feel like a bad mom that hes driving me nuts. And I hope he cant sense it. I try very hard not to show my frustration and just be patient. For example today I had a date planned w him. We were going to lunch and to target to pick out a toy. While i quickly tried to nurse ds2 before my mother in law got there, so we could leave asap....ds1 is dumping the dog water (on himself so i have to change him again), pulling the curtains, climbing onto the island and getting lotion that he squeezed out onto the carpet. Turned on a toy whose batteries were dying so it just kept making those annoying noises over and over a d over, and then screaaaaamed bloody murder bc he wanted a granola bar, which i wouldnt give him bc i wanted him to be hungry to go out to lunch. So before we even leave, i feel like he's plucking my nerves. Then he doesnt want to hold my hand in the parking lot, wont sit in the cart at target (wants me to carry him instead), drops his lollipop and throws a tantrum bc we have to throw it away since it fell on the floor. And I'm just pulling my hair out bc everything is such a fight w him. I want to enjoy my time w him. I want him to enjoy his time w me. And i want to strengthen our bond, but lately i feel like all i do is correct him. Sigh.
Can anyone relate?
1. I go to bed every single night feeling like one or the other got the short end of the stick. If i spent a lot of time w ds 1, i feel bad, that ds 2 isnt getting the same newborn coddling and bonding ds1 got. If i spend too much time oohing and ahhing over ds 2, i almost feel like I've cheated on ds 1 . I cry almost every night feeling like i cant give either of them 100%
2. Ds 1 is starting to drive me crazy w the terrible twos and i feel like I'm not enjoying my one on one time w him even when i do get it. Is that normal? It makes me feel like a bad mom that hes driving me nuts. And I hope he cant sense it. I try very hard not to show my frustration and just be patient. For example today I had a date planned w him. We were going to lunch and to target to pick out a toy. While i quickly tried to nurse ds2 before my mother in law got there, so we could leave asap....ds1 is dumping the dog water (on himself so i have to change him again), pulling the curtains, climbing onto the island and getting lotion that he squeezed out onto the carpet. Turned on a toy whose batteries were dying so it just kept making those annoying noises over and over a d over, and then screaaaaamed bloody murder bc he wanted a granola bar, which i wouldnt give him bc i wanted him to be hungry to go out to lunch. So before we even leave, i feel like he's plucking my nerves. Then he doesnt want to hold my hand in the parking lot, wont sit in the cart at target (wants me to carry him instead), drops his lollipop and throws a tantrum bc we have to throw it away since it fell on the floor. And I'm just pulling my hair out bc everything is such a fight w him. I want to enjoy my time w him. I want him to enjoy his time w me. And i want to strengthen our bond, but lately i feel like all i do is correct him. Sigh.
Can anyone relate?