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Semanthia
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I am new here but haven't yet had the nerve to add my story to this section However I am just wondering if anyone else has experienced guilt at all. Let me explain what I mean:
Turns out I have an incompetent cervix and I feel like losing our baby is my fault. I know everyone says its not but I can't help feeling it is. I feel bad for my husband because I couldn't carry her to term, and I feel bad for our daughter because she had to suffer. It is not like she was just eager to get out, she didn't do anything wrong. I am just broken.
Then I think if God made me this way should I even continue to try to save lives that he clearly wants to take? You know because everything happens for a reason, well he gave me a defected cervix for a reason and if that reason is to keep me from having children then who am I to fight against him.
Sorry if this seems odd but I am having a hard time with this and want to know if it is normal to feel this way.
Turns out I have an incompetent cervix and I feel like losing our baby is my fault. I know everyone says its not but I can't help feeling it is. I feel bad for my husband because I couldn't carry her to term, and I feel bad for our daughter because she had to suffer. It is not like she was just eager to get out, she didn't do anything wrong. I am just broken.
Then I think if God made me this way should I even continue to try to save lives that he clearly wants to take? You know because everything happens for a reason, well he gave me a defected cervix for a reason and if that reason is to keep me from having children then who am I to fight against him.
Sorry if this seems odd but I am having a hard time with this and want to know if it is normal to feel this way.