Feeling Like Such A Let Down

[Younglutonmum]

I used to post on here a couple of years ago when pregnnat with my little girl. Me and her 'dad' split when I was early pregnant and to this day he has played no role in her life what so ever. I swore that I would never ever get in this situation again. That my next child would be born into a loving family.

That just hasn't happened I'm so angry, I actually hate myself. I'm pregnant again and when I found out I was so scared of telling my partner but he was over the moon but just like Mayas dad, a few weeks down the line he gets cold feet & leaves me. I haven't seen or heard from him in 14 weeks. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed that i've told only my family & a small handful of friends. When people ask how my partner is I lie and say he's great, excited etc Everyone assumes we're living together when in fact i'm totally on my own.

I just feel such a let down. I'm on benefits, going nowhere in life and with 2 children with 2 different dads. Dont get me wrong, I dont judge those whos children have different dads but my situation is just so so wrong. Ive turned into the girl I never wanted to be.

Anyone been in a similar situation?? I just feel crap about myself

 

[whoops]

First, congratulations!

And second

I totally get where you're coming from. My cousin announced that she's pregnant this week, and even though we're the same age, her pregnancy is seen as a great thing by everyone whereas mine felt like it was treated as a tragedy.

I never thought I'd be in the situation where I'd be raising a child alone because the father never wanted to know, and it kills me that things have turned out like this. I feel like everyone who knows me either pities me or judges me for how things have turned out, even though most of it is probably in my head.

Just look after yourself. You got through things before with Maya so you know you can do it again.

 

[kirst1805]

You are not a let down, Not many people would plan to be on their own with kids, You have nothing to be ashamed of! So please don't feel like that, Things may not have worked out how you'd wanted them to but you have one (soon to be 2) beautiful children. Sod what other people think about your 'situation' you and your kids are all that matter.

If anyone had told me when I turned 21 I'd have a kid within a year or that I'd be on my own I'd have laughed in their face if i'm honest.. Never saw me having kids at all.. But I don't worry about what other people think, I wouldn't change a thing.

xx

 

[Younglutonmum]

Thank you ladies

There's just such a huge stigma attached to being a single parent, let alone a single parent with children from different relationships.

I think im just having one of those 'Grrr I hate everything' evenings lol!!

 

[kirst1805]

No probs hun. Everyone has those days.. I know I do anyway.. Sometimes a rant to get everything off your chest does the world of good.

XX