Feeling sad and scared after gynae appt

[hayz1981]

Hi all.

This might be a long post so I apologise in advance.

Well I went to see my gynae yesterday after having an HSG in October (where both of my tubes were found to be clear). Anyway, he was really nice, but today I feel so so sad and scared. I think I'm gradually losing positivity and letting fears set in.

He said that although the HSG showed my tubes to be clear, looking at the state of my endometriosis on my last laparoscopy (in 2006), although they may be able to push dye through my tubes with a syringe, he said that doesn't necessarily mean my tubes are clear enough or good enough to be functional and carry an egg successfully. He said although I may conceive naturally, given the severity of my endometriosis, it's likely that I may need help to conceive.

Anyway, he's said before he refers me to the fertility clinic, he'd like me to take clomid for four months and see if that helps at all. My cycles are longish (33-35 days) and he said the clomid may help me to get slightly shorter cycles and to ensure I'm ovulating and ovulating well. Anyway, he said it may not work, but it might be just the boost we need.

When I mentioned my OH's S (count 46 million, motility 40%) he said although it was below average, it wasn't a real cause for concern at this stage, that my endo was the real concern at the moment, and not to worry about him retesting just yet, we could address that again in 4 months in necessary. My OH will continue taking his supplements anyway so I'm hoping maybe his count has improved since July when he started taking the supplements.

So all in all, I feel like the hope I had after the HSG has been taken away a bit. I'm glad things are moving forward but I am so so scared that this isn't going to happen for us. I know I'm not alone when I say, I would give anything to have my own baby with my OH. I can wait and I can be patient, but I wish I could know that it will happen for us one day.

Sorry to ramble, just feeling alone at work today and needed to chat to people who get it.

xxxxx

 

[rachelle1975]

Oh hun i am so sorry

So clomid for a few months then FS referral? I think it's natural to feel a bit lost and scared chick - its a big deal. Have you spoken to your doctor about IVF at all or other options on what will happen if you need a referral to the FS?

Glad your DH is taking his pills and there is a good chance it may have improved. The count is still very good though chick - the range is 20-99 million so his count is okay and hopefully the motility will have improved with the pills. I think you are going to be just fine

 

[HAYS]

Aw my lovely, on a positive side,the clomid might be just what you need ey chick??
and with dh taking the pills??

Sorry your feeling pants xxxx

 

[Kitty23]

oh poppet sorry you're feeling down

Sounds promising though clomid works for loads of people doesnt it? And your DH isnt a cause for concern hopefully the clomid is all you need to get you that lovely BFP

xxxxxxx

 

[jacky24]

 

[hayz1981]

thank you girls. I think I keep trying to tell myself the endo wont be an issue to help myself keep positive, so someone telling me it it's likely to mean I wont conceive naturally is just hard. But I need to be realistic as well as positive I guess.

So yes, Clomid for four months and then probably a referral to FS. I did ask whether he would consider a laparoscopy in four months but he seemed to think he would refer me to the fertility clinic who would take it from there.


I saw the photos of my endo in his file too - it looks horrible. I'm now wholeheartedly going for it with the endometriosis diet and I'm hoping OH will maybe cut out alcohol for a little while and see if that helps everything - but I'll have to see what he says.

xxx

 

[miel]

why don't they remove your endo via chirurgie sweetie?
i had a client who had endo ...she went in and they remove it and the second cycle after the chirurgie she was pregnant...

 

[hayz1981]

why don't they remove your endo via chirurgie sweetie?
i had a client who had endo ...she went in and they remove it and the second cycle after the chirurgie she was pregnant...

what is chirurgie? Is that like a laparoscopy?

I'm going to ask if removing some of the endo is a possibility when I go back. I'll give the clomid a try first. He's never really said that's an option.

I'm not sure if that's something only my gynae would do or a fertility specialist/clinic - does anyone know?? Or is it a case of once you get referred to a fertility clinic, you just get fertility treatments - IUI, IVF etc??

xxx

 

[miel]

so sorry i wrote the word in french !!! i mean a surgery !!!!

(i am french!)

 

[hayz1981]

so sorry i wrote the word in french !!! i mean a surgery !!!!

(i am french!)

I was thinking, I don't want to sound silly but I'm sure I've never heard of that!! Clearly I need to get to French classes!

Anyway, as I say, I think I will maybe try to push for something like that when I go back. I'm just hoping and praying that I wont be going back though and I'll get my BFP soon.

xxx

 

[liztay]

good luck i'll be praying for you

 

[Farie]

thinking of you chick, fingers crossed the clomid does the trick, it's the next step for me too

 

[JASMAK]

Maybe the HSG was enough to clear your tubes a bit??? I hope that the CLomid works for you. FIngers crossed for you.

 

[hayz1981]

Maybe the HSG was enough to clear your tubes a bit??? I hope that the CLomid works for you. FIngers crossed for you.

That's what I'm hoping. Have to wait and see I guess.

When I told OH the gynae said it was unlikely we would conceive without help, he just said, 'well it was unlikely we would meet each other when we lived 300 miles apart but we did. Lots of things that are unlikely happen all the time.' - that kind of made me feel a bit better - for now anyway.
(OH couldnt come to the appt as took day off but then ended up having horrible flu bless him)