Feeling selfish :-(

[laura109]

March has been the month from hell in this house. For 7 days i had a virus that gave me shivers aches pains, sore throat, congestion, headaches and feeling sick. On day one and five i cried down the phone to my sister to look after my one year old. I felt guilty and like id given in too easily. I felt like i should be able to get on with it really, but i felt awful and my daughter is so easily bored these days she hangs around my feet whining if we are stuck indoors all day. My daughter enjoyed her time with her auntie though so she came back happy.

3 days after i got better and we got back out to babygroups etc dd vomited all over the carpet. She is cutting teeth and already unhappy most of the time so this just added to her suffering i was miserable watching my baby vomit and we ended up with a smelly carpet and a mountain of clothes blankets and a bouncer chair needing washing. She seemed ok the next day but then 24 hours later she vomited all over our bed at 3am. Then 48 hours later she vomited in her cot and all in the bath when cleaning her up. Easter monday was a depressing day at home with her crying and clingy. I did my best to comfort her but i needed to wash the clothes and clean the house. Oh was at a wedding on the monday and i wanted him to go as he rarely sees friends. Dr said it was a low grade tummy bug and i hoped that was the end. But 24 hours later i was sick all night and in bed aching all day. My other half joined me in the afternoon. It was awful!!

Two days on dd is teething and full of cold. Crying loads. Fussing loads. I got us out for walks today which has helped but ive just had a battle to get her to bed and feel so bad hearing her cry.

The house is a mess and i feel like i dont want anymore children after this. Sounds extremely dramatic but I feel so deflated and like ive let my daughter down. Just wanted to get it off my chest

 

[yazzy]

Try not to feel you've let anyone down. Sounds like you are doing just find after dealing with all those bugs. The house can wait, deal with it when everyone is better.
I'm currently stuck in bed with a virus, my nearly 4 year old is asleep one side and my 6 month old is the other side. I'd happily let a family member have them to look after so I can sleep and get better quicker.
I'm sure you'll be feeling differently when you are all back to normal.

 

[noon_child]

Never getting to have a proper sick day is one of the things that I find hardest about parenting. Got a migraine? Nobody cares. Vomitting everywhere? Just chain a bucket to your waste. Feel like death came to live in your lungs? You are still contracted to read three bedtime stories even if the words are incomprehensible through your coughing fits.

Don't beat yourself up - you are doing great!

 

[justplay91]

Yeah, we've just finally (knock on wood!) gotten over about 3 months of illnesses bouncing back and forth between the four of us and my god, it was rough. Don't feel like you failed; some illnesses really kick our butts, and that's okay. Take all the help you can get, seriously!

 

[laura109]

Thanks ladies. Hope you feel better yazzy.

My dd is constantly crying and fussing all day with her molars cutting. Im still feeling run down and i feel so down in the dumps. It has definitely been a miserable month. Hope its a better week as its my birthday wednesday.

I actually thought omg how are you expected to carry on. Im not the bravest with sickness bugs. My partner soliders on alot better than i do.

Thanks again for your reasurring posts xx