Finally time to introduce myself ... ;)

[trickytrouble]

So I finally plucked up the courage for a proper intro .....

I am 32, the OH is 35, we have been trying since March 2006 (bearing in mind also I tried for 3 years with my previous OH but had some pretty severe cervical probs so put it down to that).

Initially I came off the pill in early 2006 and gave myself six months to regulate (well, to regulate to having sod all periods !!)... but it was only last September 07 that a doctor finally took me seriously and only because I was bleeding "down there".... anyway after tons of STD checks, blood work etc etc where the bloods were all "fine".. I had several ultrasounds and vaginal probes only to find a large cyst on my left side (which worked out to be on my left fallopian tube), I was then diagnosed with severe PCOS (hence having no periods for 6 months at a time).. I was then referred to a gyno and ONLY got my first appointment exactly 2 years later in March 08 where I was referred immediately for a laparoscopy and ovarian cystectomy (to have the large cyst removed).. whilst in there they found most clusters of cysts around my ovaries but a future lap will probably remove those (if need be, further ultrasounds to follow later).

I now have my follow up gyno consult in October 08 (the 13th) to discuss possible fertility treatments - although I should be on clomid by now but they are soo long in terms of waiting here and xenical, although no need as have already lost 2 1/2 stones - I was 13st 7lbs (86kg) and am now 11st (69kg)..

We had bad news with the OH's sperm but were just advised to re-test given that he was on meds and had had an operation so had infections etc. We are now waiting for a further slot to give in his little swimmers but after four negative home tests too we are a little worried. He has given up the booze though which is great and we are off on holiday soon for three weeks so will be nice to have a break..

this has been a long and torturous journey so far. My emotions are all over the place and even shagging feels like a chore because I dont know when i ovulate and OPKs are pretty useless with PCOS so its all guesswork and after 30 months of TTC I am getting more and more negative about it.

Anyhow, sorry for the vent but look forward to getting to know everyone, even though I have been following journies as an invisible lurker for over a year so feel like I already know everyone !!!

TTx

 

[Tishimouse]

Good morning TrickyT,

I'm up early this Sunday morning too and thought I would get my fix of BnB in early as I am anticipating a bit of a busy day ahead.

Firstly I would like to say congratulations on your fabulous weight loss, two-and-a-half stone is awesome. That equates to 35lbs which I always visualise in bags of sugar ... that's 17.5 bags of sugar!!!! Massive congrats for that.

As for your TTC journey and all the complications, well what can I say except the ONLY way you can look at it is to concentrate on the fact that you have come a long way on your journey, so you simply have to be closer to your BFP than you were 30 months ago.

It might sound daft, but when you know the probable or possible cause, then you can do something about it. It's when there is no explanation and you are searching for answers that the pressure builds. I agree that it is difficult to keep yourself motivated and every now and then my brain tells me to give up, but it doesn't take long for my heart to take over and give me a little nudge to keep trying.

Thought I would just say hi and I've ended up waffling (as usual). I look forward to sharing our journeys together and it's great that you've started to share with us as I think it can prove quite therapeutic. Welcome aboard TrickyT

 

[trickytrouble]

Hi Tishimouse,

Firstly thanks for your response

After my initial laparoscopy and being told except for the PCOS that we would be fine and would get pregnant eventually but that we fell under the category of "unexplained subfertility" (as apparently they dont use the term infertility anymore !!) I thought to myself "shit.." because at least when you know something is wrong e.g low sperm count, you of course, will be devastated but you can begin to look at alternatives.. although it doesnt make the journey any easier.

However some days I am really positive then all of a sudden I feel like crap again and resign myself to the fact that I may never have a child..

It's swings and roundabouts but a boat that we are all in..

It has to get easier... surely?

"keep the faith TT, keep the faith" lol

TTx

 

[vickie83]

Hiya TT :wave: I really admire that you are "keeping the faith" hope the appointment in October goes well for you

 

[Helen_26]

Hiya hun and welcome. Just wanted to wish you all the best with your journey.