I misssed J soooo much.
Last night startet of great, was havin a drink with few of the girls an dancinn etc.. the on came my grief over loosin Lewie an then i cried over tha an over missin Jayden an i ended up drinkin myself silly an ended up colapsin a dozen times ha. i drank 1 an a half litres of shots, straight from the bottle instead of usin shot glasses an then moved on to vodka an today i have the motherr of hangovers.
Had an arguement with Adam too. Yesterday he turned up late to get him then i rang him last night to see how J was an he was bein a stubborn ***** to me so thought, 4get it jus ignore him but then today he was meant to be home for 12, get to 12 no signn so at quarter past i rings his house askin if they were on there way so Adam says no me mum + dad have took him on a walk so i flippedd! i said get him home now, he was meant to be home at 12, so 1 oclock comes an they knock as if it was nothing! so i am sooo noy happy with them!