Fourth pregnancy, 2 MMC's

[caz_hills]

Hi,
I'm 12 weeks pregnant with my 4th pregnancy - after having our son who is 4.5 we had two missed miscarriages, one in September 14 and one in September 15. We found out about both at the 12 week scans.

I have my scan this Friday and I suppose completely understandably I now am so scared of scans as the last two have shown bad news which we didn't know was coming.

We had a private scan at 8 weeks and it was good - strong HB and growth inline with expectations but this happened on MMC number 1 so I am still so worried.

My MS has been so bad this time - I don't think I could go through another pregnancy and loss, I've said to DH that if this doesn't work that's it.

I so want this to be ok - but am dreading that bad news again.

I know I just need to wait and see - no one can guess but maybe just posting it makes it better x

 

[hopie2015]

Caz, I know what you mean about just posting making you feel better. I actually could have written your entire post myself. Same experience with the prior mc's. I also have had hg and now at 12 weeks just very bad nausea and told my OH, I can never go through this again if this doesn't work out. I've basically been in bed for the first tri!

My 12 wk scan is also on Friday. I have prepared myself mentally for the worst. I guess it is a defense mechanism. We also had perfect scan at 8 weeks with great heart beat. I know you read chances of a mc are so super low then, but still doesn't help me.

So I just want to say I know how you are feeling. I can't wait until Friday appts. are over for us! I just want to know now one way or another.

Wishing you the best of luck. Know chances are so in your favor of baby being perfectly fine!

 

[caz_hills]

Oh thanks Hopie how funny that our scans are both on Friday! I am so dreading it but also hoping it will be fine so we can tell people and also see baby again. I just think that if we can get through this scan we will be further than we have been since we had our son. Then hopefully I will start to feel movement which will be wonderful!

Good luck for Friday too. I will be on here to hopefully hear your good news and share ours xxx

 

[hopie2015]

Yes, caz..exactly. Seeing everything okay on 12 wk scan will mean have made it further along than ever before, so that should bring a lot of comfort.

I'm older, so am going to start the genetic testing if scan goes okay and probably tell people not until Easter.

Yes, hoping we have great reports to share on Friday! I have a great feeling for you!

 

[caz_hills]

You're very kind!

And glad you can hide it - I'm the same size I was when I was 18 weeks with my son already, only so many well positioned scarves I can wear!

 

[hopie2015]

Wow! That is a great sign! Good thing it is winter here for another month..can cover up.
Cant wait til this day is over. Best of luck!

 

[bubbles82]

Good luck girls, really hope all goes well for you at your scans. My situation isn't the same, I've had 3 losses before but only one mmc, which was last November. I'd been told things looked fine at a private scan at 7+5, but I wasn't convinced so booked another private scan at 9 weeks where there was no longer a heartbeat. Dreading any scans this time round, have an early one next week as referred to EPU by my GP, but will only be 6+2 so dreading either definite bad news, or being in limbo waiting the standard two weeks for a rescan if it's too early to confirm anything either way.
I hate how we can't enjoy pregnancy at all anymore, and things like scans which should be happy and exciting times are just terrifying. Even good news at this stage won't help me as I'll be wondering how long until things go wrong again.

 

[hopie2015]

Caz, I hope you are doing well and today went well for you.

Bubbles- I am really sorry about your losses. Believe me, I know how you feel. I actually received good news today at the 12 wk scan -- baby was waving! I think I am still in shock. It's like I can't fully believe it. And yes, I worry now about genetic test results in 2 weeks and my 16th week appt! But for now, at least this wknd I am going to relax and feel grateful that for now baby is okay and all is okay.

So I totally know how you feel. It totally sucks we can't relax and enjoy the pregnancy. First tri is SO hard. Just keep hoping for the best and relax as best we can is all we can do. Worrying will do us no good, only harm really.
I guess I'm putting it into God's hands now and just go day by day.
Wishing you all the luck in the world -- You will hold your rainbow baby!!

 

[caz_hills]

Congrats Hopie - so pleased for you - whats your due date?
Our scan went well too - baby was wonderful, measured well and EDD 5th Sept.
Bubbles so sorry for your losses too. Hope the scan is ok - 6+2 I know is early but hopefully you can see a HB and know everything is on track. My hubbie is still so worried even after the 12 week scan - as I am but I am excited too as we have not been this far since our son, 5 years ago.
x