Britonthego
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My boyfriend and I just experienced a MC in December. It was not a planned pregnancy, as we are both about to finish up college and haven't been together all that long (half a year.) It was really rough at first, he wanted me to have an abortion but I stayed my ground and continued on with the pregnancy. He came around nearly instantly once he realized what an ass he was being. Ever since he has been extremely supportive.. And when we miscarried he was truly heart broken. But now I am having serious issues surrounding this whole debacle! We are planning on getting married two years from now. (He wants to wait until he is "secure" in his job.) That is frustrating to me, but I get it. I just came out of a three and a half year engagement that ended miserably -- I know now not to rush things. It's just that I want a child so badly and he is no where near that point. He wants to wait until I graduate from Law school (assuming I get in) which will be four years from now! Four years!!! The worst part is that I see how logical this all is. I'm 22, I love to go out, I really can't take care of a child right now.. But I still want one. I feel like it's the only thing that can make me TRULY whole again. Does this feeling ever go away? Is it the recent MC that is making me so baby crazy? Ahhh.... I'm sorry to sound like such a negative nancy but most of my friends think that I'm crazy for even wanting a child and for attempting to keep the pregnancy in the first place. Now I feel like our sex life is affected by this MC. We are using condoms and birth control. He hounds me every day to take my pill, which I can do on my own. He doesn't trust me so that makes me not want to sleep with him....
WOW. That felt good getting it all out there! Haha. Advice, similar venting stories are welcomed!
WOW. That felt good getting it all out there! Haha. Advice, similar venting stories are welcomed!