Frustrated, and emotional.

[kristymarie17]

This is just a venting and feel sorry for me thread.

I know i'm only on our 3rd cycle of TTC. But the let down is hard every time. I can't even imagine how you girls that are on double digit cycles feel when you get a

OH and I want this so bad. He's upset, but is trying to make me feel better. I'm trying not to be upset because I know it only makes him feel worse and he feels like it's his fault even though it's neither of our faults.

I'm just emotional, and want a sticky bean in my belly so bad. I'm so jealous of all you girls. Please don't take that the wrong way, I'm so happy that you guys get sticky beans, i'm just envious. I know that when the time is right of OH and I to conceive we will. I'm just getting impatient.

My mom emailed me this morning, said she bought a crib and a stroller from one of my stepdads friends for their house. My parents are the only family members that know we are trying. What if it never happens? And they have all these things. Momma wants to be a grandma so bad. She talks about it all the time, and how she can't wait to spoil her grandkids. The fear of letting her down breaks my heart just that much more.

vent over, thanks if you read this far. Trying to stay as positive as I can. It's just been an emotional day.

 

[mama.mouse]

Hun my advice is to just take it easy and don't be so hard on yourself! I think also maybe tell your mom to cool it a little also otherwise you are going to feel all this pressure! You need to make sure they understand that this is your journey. It's not always easy but in the end it will be so worth it!

You and your hubby need to enjoy the process for now. Don't be discouraged in the months of the negatives and never say never! It's totally ok when AF shows up to have a glass of wine and a sob (I'm a regular, believe me) but then you get right back up and you carry on. Your baby is just waiting patiently in line to come down and meet you xx

This is why this forum is here. So we can all lift each other up until we reach our final goal.

If you need someone to talk to then use this thread to vent away, I'll be here

 

[kristymarie17]

Mama Mouse:

Thank you so much for the kind words. You're really sweet

Its just been a hectic day, or week for that matter and the negative test today just was the rock that pushed me off the cliff. I know that it will happen, and I have to have fun with it, i'm just an instant gratification type of person and when I don't succeed I get hard on myself.

Here's to next month!!

 

[bollz]

Oh - what happened?! I thought you were only 9 DPO today?! That's the most common implantation today... so very likely you would have a negative at this stage? They say 14 DPO for most women! Or did AF arrive early? If it's the latter, that sucks but if you have just tested early, don't give up hope until AF shows!

 

[kristymarie17]

Oh - what happened?! I thought you were only 9 DPO today?! That's the most common implantation today... so very likely you would have a negative at this stage? They say 14 DPO for most women! Or did AF arrive early? If it's the latter, that sucks but if you have just tested early, don't give up hope until AF shows!

AF is supposed to arrive on Saturday. Took a test yesterday, BFN. I just assumed that 3 days before AF is supposed to be here would be soon enough to test with a frer test. I have zero symptoms and my gut instinct is just telling me that I'm not pregnant. We'll see I suppose. Not going to hold my breath tho!

Yesterday was just an emotional day for my and I was feeling sorry for myself. lol But thank you girlfriend!

 

[alexanne89]

Oh - what happened?! I thought you were only 9 DPO today?! That's the most common implantation today... so very likely you would have a negative at this stage? They say 14 DPO for most women! Or did AF arrive early? If it's the latter, that sucks but if you have just tested early, don't give up hope until AF shows!

AF is supposed to arrive on Saturday. Took a test yesterday, BFN. I just assumed that 3 days before AF is supposed to be here would be soon enough to test with a frer test. I have zero symptoms and my gut instinct is just telling me that I'm not pregnant. We'll see I suppose. Not going to hold my breath tho!

Yesterday was just an emotional day for my and I was feeling sorry for myself. lol But thank you girlfriend!

Then there's still hope! Keeping my fingers crossed for you! And if it's another BFN, we'll be here for you!

 

[kristymarie17]

Thank you girls so much!!

It really is nice to see so many women support one another.

 

[bollz]

No worries! It's def nice to have people to talk too!

I'm 7DPO today, not really got any unusual symptoms.. majorly sore boobs but that's fairly common for me. The odd cramp but nothing out of the ordinary..I'm terrible for sitting in an odd position at work and then getting aches and pains in my stomach area, probably just that most of the time!

Not sure how I feel about this month.. I feel more hopeful than last month, using OPK's at least meant we times it right this time! And my temperature is way up for me, so I'm also reassured I likely ovulated! You just never know until you start this process!

Keep us updated! Got my fingers crossed for you

 

[kristymarie17]

This was our first month estimating my O day. I just kind of counted, I didn't use any tests or check my temp.

Not even really sure how to do all of that, or what to look for. I'm trying to read everyones post but it's hard to see my CM since I wear a liner everyday and theres just so much craziness that goes into ovulation day.

I believe i'm 12 DPO today, AF should be here this Saturday/Sunday. The test I took yesterday was negative so who knows.

Next month will be a little more heartbreaking if I do all the temping and test for the surge and I still get a BFN.

We'll see! Good luck and fingers crossed for you! What cycle are you on?

 

[mama.mouse]

If you are worried about not catching the eggie just BD every other day to be safe and you should catch it in time! If you cycle is around 28 days you can probably estimate the surge will be some time between CD10 and CD16. Not everyone is the same but that is the general "standard". I go on O pains because my endo makes them pretty intense. CM is a bit tricky but if you just have a feel around during that time it should be watery or the same consistency as egg white when you are your most fertile. If you are not noticing much CM at all then try using a TTC friendly lubricant like PreSeed to keep the swimmers going for longer xx

 

[bollz]

Temping and OPK's are very easy, don't be worried. I keep my digital thermometer by my bed and literally pop it into my mouth when I first wake up, mentally note the time and go back to either snoozing or sleep if I've woken up before my alarm! Then just enter the time into Fertility Friend after my shower the app does all the charts for you and puts the Red Cross on where it predicts O.

OPKs, I'd recommend starting around CD10 ish and testing when it suits you. I did 5pm after work!

I'm not paying much attention to my CM other than noticing EWCM fairly clearly on toilet paper. I'm certainly not concerned post ovulation...! I don't check my cervix either, just a personal thing that I don't fancy prodding around up there! I'm happy enough with my temps and OPKs!

 

[kristymarie17]

If you are worried about not catching the eggie just BD every other day to be safe and you should catch it in time! If you cycle is around 28 days you can probably estimate the surge will be some time between CD10 and CD16. Not everyone is the same but that is the general "standard". I go on O pains because my endo makes them pretty intense. CM is a bit tricky but if you just have a feel around during that time it should be watery or the same consistency as egg white when you are your most fertile. If you are not noticing much CM at all then try using a TTC friendly lubricant like PreSeed to keep the swimmers going for longer xx

Sometimes I notice my O pains and sometimes I don't. And before we were TTC, i didn't even realize they were O pains. Just thought I had some cramping and popped an ibproufen and they went away.

I'll definitely look into the pre-seed. That's for using before BDing right?

 

[kristymarie17]

Temping and OPK's are very easy, don't be worried. I keep my digital thermometer by my bed and literally pop it into my mouth when I first wake up, mentally note the time and go back to either snoozing or sleep if I've woken up before my alarm! Then just enter the time into Fertility Friend after my shower the app does all the charts for you and puts the Red Cross on where it predicts O.

OPKs, I'd recommend starting around CD10 ish and testing when it suits you. I did 5pm after work!

I'm not paying much attention to my CM other than noticing EWCM fairly clearly on toilet paper. I'm certainly not concerned post ovulation...! I don't check my cervix either, just a personal thing that I don't fancy prodding around up there! I'm happy enough with my temps and OPKs!

Thank you so much for your help! I'll definitely be buying a thermometer. What OPK's do you recommend??

This doesn't sound too hard. I wish I would've just started doing this right off the bat.

 

[bollz]

I used OneStep Highly Sensitive from Amazon. Bought 50 for £9.49, so v cheap! Where my cycles are a quite wide ranging, I figured cheaper would be better so I could test on more days! I really thought they weren't gona go positive but one day my tests went from very faint the previous day to almost positive, then positive the next day (I did two tests that day as it was so dark). So don't worry if you don't get the gradual build up of darkness some people do. I certainly didn't!

I'm def glad I did OPK's and temps this month. I was originally just gona give it a go for 3-4 months but I'd experienced such a range in cycle lengths over the year so far that I figured this would just give us a slightly better shot!

 

[AnnieJ10]

Girl you are not alone! I totally get it, I'm going into my 6th month TTC and it's been an emotional roller coaster. The first cycle after going off the pill was 100 days and he second was 46! I know we all think we're gonna get pregnant immediately but that's not realistic unfortunately. I just keep telling myself that when we get our bfp it'll be worth the wait! This forum has been a tremendous help for me as well. We will get there!

 

[kristymarie17]

Girl you are not alone! I totally get it, I'm going into my 6th month TTC and it's been an emotional roller coaster. The first cycle after going off the pill was 100 days and he second was 46! I know we all think we're gonna get pregnant immediately but that's not realistic unfortunately. I just keep telling myself that when we get our bfp it'll be worth the wait! This forum has been a tremendous help for me as well. We will get there!

That's sweet, thank you!

AF arrived Saturday morning loud and proud.

Onto cycle #4. I'm on CD 4 right now.

I couldn't even imagine have 100 day cycle, or even a 46 day cycle. Thats insane!!

 

[alexanne89]

Girl you are not alone! I totally get it, I'm going into my 6th month TTC and it's been an emotional roller coaster. The first cycle after going off the pill was 100 days and he second was 46! I know we all think we're gonna get pregnant immediately but that's not realistic unfortunately. I just keep telling myself that when we get our bfp it'll be worth the wait! This forum has been a tremendous help for me as well. We will get there!

That's sweet, thank you!

AF arrived Saturday morning loud and proud.

Onto cycle #4. I'm on CD 4 right now.

I couldn't even imagine have 100 day cycle, or even a 46 day cycle. Thats insane!!

So sorry AF showed! Darn! I was really hoping as it's hard to stay positive cycle after cycle. Annie is right, I thought I would get pregnant within a couple months since that's what it seemed like for everyone else!

My first cycle after BCP was 139 days! Whew! Right now it's anywhere between 38-46 days. I feel like I'm constantly waiting all the time!

 

[kristymarie17]

So sorry AF showed! Darn! I was really hoping as it's hard to stay positive cycle after cycle. Annie is right, I thought I would get pregnant within a couple months since that's what it seemed like for everyone else!

My first cycle after BCP was 139 days! Whew! Right now it's anywhere between 38-46 days. I feel like I'm constantly waiting all the time!

yikes! I have no idea how I could handle that. 38-46 days in between periods?!

 

[AnnieJ10]

alexanne, I dont know if you've tried vitex but I started it last cycle and im hoping thats what allowed me to have a 46 day cycle instead of 100! I read great things about it and that it can take a few months to work but can really help in regulating hormones, cycles and ovulation. Have you tried it?

 

[alexanne89]

alexanne, I dont know if you've tried vitex but I started it last cycle and im hoping thats what allowed me to have a 46 day cycle instead of 100! I read great things about it and that it can take a few months to work but can really help in regulating hormones, cycles and ovulation. Have you tried it?

I have looked into Vitex but am too scared to take it. I'm ovulating on my own and don't want to mess that up. I've read a few reviews where it made the problem(s) worse, they ended up getting a very long period (weeks long), or it stopped their period all together. My doctor suggested acupuncture which I'll be on my third session this Friday. Even if acupuncture doesn't work, I find it very relaxing and it's a great stress reliever! I'm going to give that a few more sessions and if my cycles continue to bounce around, I may have to look further into Vitex. Glad it helped you! Hopefully it continues to shorten your cycle into the average range.