Getting Really Anxious..

[~ Vicky ~]

For the most part of my pregnancy i've been positive-ish about bringing up Ava on my own without having her Dad around - it's been my personal feelings about my failed relationship that has been the main problem.

Now though I just can't shake off how scared I feel about being a single Mum, about being solely responsible for this little persons care and upbringing. I really don't want to fail at it and i'm terrified I will and everyone will look down on me.

I have my family around but I don't live with them, and most of my friends disappeared off the scene when they realised baby was my priority and I can't just go flashing the cash at a minutes notice.

My due date is 4 weeks exactly away.. i'm term in one week. It's getting so close and the closer it gets the more panicky and anxious I feel. I already love Ava so much, I don't want to be a disappointment to her.

 

[sue08]

you will do great, I think its normal to feel this way.

 

[brownhairedmom]

I know how you feel. I'm starting to stress out really bad that I'm going to have to do this by myself, I'm going to be ther person that is soely responsible for her well being and upbringing. I'm worrying about money, etc. I know I live with my parents and I will have a ton of help, but I'm still her main person!

I went hysterical for about 45 minutes last night because my grandmother asked if dipshit had called about Meredith, and then went on a big speel about how I don't need him etc etc etc. Its really getting to me every time someone brings him up and then tells me I'm better off without him. Its a touchy subject.

 

[~ Vicky ~]

Same here! I saw someone I haven't seen for a long time the other day and she asked how Ava and I were then said 'Is Daddy excited?' so I told the truth and said he wasn't around and that was his own decision not mine. She started saying how much better it'll be me on my own and I just thought, I really hate the fact my daughter will be born into a single parent family and have no Dad. It's hardly my fault but it's not fair on her!

I might be better off without Prick, but how do I know Ava will be? I don't.

 

[nikky0907]

It's not something anyone plans or wishes upon themselves.
I can tell you that even with the fact that Lola has a dad I was scared of bringing her up on her own.I still am sometimes.
And I did feel slightly guilty about the fact that she won't have a proper family.

But you know what,she's here,she's next to me,she's happy and perfect and we're doing great.
It's hard but I'm also enjoying it alot.
I'm kind of a 'glass half full' girl myself and I just think about all the positive prospects and not thinking about what could have been.
This is the situation now and we have to take it in our own hands,with all the challenges ahead.