Grieving again, at 11 weeks?

[babybloo]

I've been feeling down the past few days. I told my coworkers about my pregnancy this tuesday and I havent had an ultrasound in over two weeks. I can't believe I let myself tell. It's still a secret to the rest of the world.

I have a scan next Wednesday at 12 + 1 and while I'm excited I'm also feeling something I can't describe. It's going to really look like a baby and that makes everything real. But its my real second baby... Not my first little blob I lost. It's reminding me more and more of the fragility of life and coming to terms with the fact I have no control over this or my body or my baby or how it all plays out is definitely coming to a head at this point.

Is anyone else feeling like this? I had been totally ok since this bfp, feeling as I had cried enough and onto new beginnings. Now this...

 

[Dollybird]

It's normal. Think all of us have felt that way at one point or another. Is true we have no control over our bodies or what happens.. Sometimes things happen that don't seem fair and Hurt us. I think all we can do is have faith.. Faith that this time round things will be different. Worrying now won't change the outcome, just take the joy out of your pregnancy. All we can do is try out best- eat right, rest right, look after ourselves. If something does go wrong then at lest we know its not our fault. Some things just happen. I'm sure your bubs will be fine this time round xxx

 

[Tournesol]

It's normal to feel like this hun.
This is such a scary time, the first 12 weeks are the worst.
You just have to try to be as positive as you can and think how happy you'll be when you see your little bean at your scan next week x