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I just need some advice and cant talk to my fiance about it.
I met my ex when i was 13 and was with him for 5 years until i was 18. Hes my daughters biological father and was my first love. I dont think a first love ever really leaves you. Anyways we split in 2011 not long after his first tour in Afghanistan and i met my current partner who i have a son with and am very happy with. I spoke to him on and off through the years but he had no solid contact with our daughter as his posting was germany. He also moved on and had a fiance but no further children.
Fast forward to March this year and we found out he'd died in Afghanistan on his latest tour there. I have been crushed. Dont get me wrong i love my fiance to bits but i had so many things i needed to clear up with my ex and he was my first love and we have a daughter. He'll always own a part of my heart.
I dont think my feelings are normal though, i feel guilty for feeling them as i should be happy with my OH. Every time i see a picture of my ex i think of all our happy memories and get a huge lump in my throat and have to disappear into another room and cry. Should i be feeling this about an ex even though ive moved on and love my OH to bits?
I met my ex when i was 13 and was with him for 5 years until i was 18. Hes my daughters biological father and was my first love. I dont think a first love ever really leaves you. Anyways we split in 2011 not long after his first tour in Afghanistan and i met my current partner who i have a son with and am very happy with. I spoke to him on and off through the years but he had no solid contact with our daughter as his posting was germany. He also moved on and had a fiance but no further children.
Fast forward to March this year and we found out he'd died in Afghanistan on his latest tour there. I have been crushed. Dont get me wrong i love my fiance to bits but i had so many things i needed to clear up with my ex and he was my first love and we have a daughter. He'll always own a part of my heart.
I dont think my feelings are normal though, i feel guilty for feeling them as i should be happy with my OH. Every time i see a picture of my ex i think of all our happy memories and get a huge lump in my throat and have to disappear into another room and cry. Should i be feeling this about an ex even though ive moved on and love my OH to bits?