This is for all those who have experienced the emotional wreckage of a m/c or mmc.
So many people just don't get. It wasn't their baby, their future that was lost. They weren't lying awake at night dreaming about the little life they were so eager to bring into the world, impatiently awaiting the first scan or the next new development. Nor did they trawl the internet looking for every scrap of information on the little grape in their belly, imagining all the possibilities. No, to everyone else it was just an embryo or a foetus. Nothing to be so upset over.
The moment I knew that I had life inside of me, my whole heart was so fully immersed in its protection and love. I watched what I ate, what I wore, where I went and what I did. It consumed me and permeated my every thought.
Then one day, it was all just gone. Forever. I couldn't fix it or bring it back or pretend. I had no control and very few choices. My heart was broken into a thousand little pieces and no person or thing in the world could fix it.
Well, I am much better now. I just wanted to say this is how I had felt and I am so sure many many woman feel and that it's okay.
I also wanted to say goodbye little one. You were loved before I knew you and you will always be in my heart.
So many people just don't get. It wasn't their baby, their future that was lost. They weren't lying awake at night dreaming about the little life they were so eager to bring into the world, impatiently awaiting the first scan or the next new development. Nor did they trawl the internet looking for every scrap of information on the little grape in their belly, imagining all the possibilities. No, to everyone else it was just an embryo or a foetus. Nothing to be so upset over.
The moment I knew that I had life inside of me, my whole heart was so fully immersed in its protection and love. I watched what I ate, what I wore, where I went and what I did. It consumed me and permeated my every thought.
Then one day, it was all just gone. Forever. I couldn't fix it or bring it back or pretend. I had no control and very few choices. My heart was broken into a thousand little pieces and no person or thing in the world could fix it.
Well, I am much better now. I just wanted to say this is how I had felt and I am so sure many many woman feel and that it's okay.
I also wanted to say goodbye little one. You were loved before I knew you and you will always be in my heart.
