Hardest thing i've ever had to go through!

[mama2connor]

Hi girls, i hope you don't mind me posting in here. Today i'm feeling very emotional, and fragile. Last week my partner & I went for a gender scan to find out the sex of our twin babies (16 weeks 1 day pregnant) at babybond. We were soo excited. When the sonographer started scanning me, i noticed the babies weren't moving on the big screen, and also i couldn't see their heartbeats flickering away. I mentioned this, but she ignored me and continued looking at the screen. I knew deep down something wasn't right. My partner on the other hand had no idea, and was still excited. The woman turned to me and said I'm so sorry, i really don't know how to tell you this..i went on to finish her sentance and said They have died haven't they? she said i'm so sorry, i desperatley tried to find their heartbeats but there is nothing. I instantly started to sob. At that point i just felt numb. She told me that she could ring the hospital and arrange for me to go and see someone, or i could do it myself and wait a few days. I went to the hospital that night where i had another scan, and they had confirmed that they had only died within the last few days and it was more than likely died from twin to twin transfusion. I was given my first tablet that night and sent home. Yesterday i went back in where i had my second tablet. I was in labour from 9:30am until i pushed them into the world sleeping at 15:09 and 15:12 two perfectly formed baby boys. We named them thomas and ryan. We spent some time with them, and took some pictures. I was given some certificates from them, and their two little blankets. They were just like two perfectly formed babies. They even had toenails and perfect little fingers and toes! they have been taken off for postmortems, then when we get them back we will be having a private burrial for them. Sorry this is so long, i'm still in such shock and i'm heartbroken!

 

[honey08]

oohh gosh hun, im so sry for u going thro this
lovely names for the boys xx

 

[Las78]

Oh honey, sending you huge hugs, I know how devastated it feels having gone through this myself very recently, it is the most heartbreaking thing in the world. I'm 4 days on and it does each day get a tiny but easier to deal with I know it won't seem like that now but just take the time you need to grieve and look after yourself. You are in my thoughts x

 

[golcarlilly]

I am so sorry hun, what a horrendous thing to have to go through, I had medical management for m/c last year at only 7 weeks so I know how bad it is and for you to have been as far along as you were must have been heartbreaking, I hope you get some positive answers from the postmortems and can go forward from this awful event, sending you huge and wishing you a speedy recovery

RIP Ryan and Thomas xxx

 

[jacky24]

Im so sorry for your loss.
May the Lord Bless you and keep you, May his grace always shine upon you and give you PEACE.

 

[JemmaD]

i dont know what to say im in tears, im so so sorry xxxx

 

[MrsJD]

Oh Mama2connor I am so so sorry to hear this. You had a hard time with bleeding at the beginning and I'm in shock to read this has happened.

My heart goes out to you and your family.



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[Kiddo]

That's so sad. I had a mc last year but I can't imagine what you're going through - you're being very strong. You've picked lovely names for the boys.

 

[princess_t]

So sorry for your loss hun.

 

[Hevz]

, lots of love to you and your family babe

 

[Snowball]

I am so so sorry hun

 

[Rumpskin]

Your story has bought tears to my eyes. I am so very sorry darling.

Kisses for you baby boys xxxx

 

[overcomer79]

RIP Ryan and Thomas

 

[charveyron]

I'm so sorry for you loss - RIP little angels x

 

[Shelby2007]

I am so sorry you are having to go through this I was told at nine weeks.. that I was pregnant with identicals.. one had died about a week early.. and the other a few days earlier. It is a terrible thing for a mother to be told. The names are lovely.

 

[v2007]

Im so sorry, Rest in Peace Ryan and Thomas.

v xxx

 

[cinnamum]

so sorry x x x x

 

[toby2]

am so glad you have some things to remember your little boys with and so sorry this has happened
x

 

[ellie]

i am so sorry

 

[wantababybump]

Oh my gosh Im so sorry for your losses. Big to you xx