I cannot even tell you how much I understand! My anxiety since going into my second trimester has been INSANE. I worry about absolutely everything. I don't want to go out because I am petrified of getting into an accident. I obsess on germs, so even grocery shopping is something that I dread. I end up having to clean and sanitize everything. Time consuming doesnt even begin to explain this anxiety.
I am frantic that even if i try to avoid outside germs and illnesses, my husband will bring them home anyway, and I can't avoid it. I have been to my ob's office unannounced twice now, the first time convinced that I had a uti or some infection (I didnt) and the second time because I felt they were dismissing my symptoms this past week of a stomach bug or food poisoning (another huge fear of mine).
I know that my anxiety stems from the fact that this preg was so hard to acheive and it is our absolute last chance ever... So I have completely gone off the deep end in worrying. I have been convinced that my pregnancy should be considered high risk, even after being told by my doctor that it is not. I am constantly expecting for something to go wrong. It has been HELL.
You are not alone in your anxiety!!! Please hang in there and know that there are people here whom understand what youre going through, you can talk to us anytime!