hating school, wanting to focus on pregnancy and myself more ): ugh

[thecurlymama]

This week has totally been stressing me out. I'm going to school right now but it really doesn't feel satisfying. I always feel like I'm just sitting in class listening to my teacher talk and even if it's something that I'm interested in, I can't help but to be distracted and regret being there! All I want to do is go home, make a protein smoothie, lay down, put on some comfort music, eat a snack and talk to my baby boy. I know that going to school is what I "should" do in order to be successful, but I just can't bring myself to enjoy it. I get the motivation of wanting my child to be proud of me for graduating even though I was pregnant and a young mother, but is any of that worth the stress it seems to be causing me? Probably worth it... but UGH. I can't even explain the stress.

I have a paper due tomorrow that I haven't even started due to major procrastination, I'm forgetting homework a lot lately which is not at all like me. I feel like all I want to do is clean and organize baby clothes. I want to snuggle my man and talk about our future.

I hate that going to school is so important. I feel so helpless because if I don't go to school my OH will be disappointed (he didn't graduate high school). My mom will always support me, but I can't be the only person in my whole entire family that doesn't graduate high school PLUS the only one to have a child under 18. I feel absolutely ridiculous and nervous.

 

[Hope2be2013]

You can do it-- get your high school degree! I know it must be hard because I'm not even pregnant yet (TTC) and I'm suppose to be starting grad school in August (I'm 23). My mind is totally not there right now because I'm consumed with a potential baby and my current job as a nurse and my husband, and honestly I'm content. My mom would totally freak if she knew I was planning to have a baby soon. She's one of those "wait until your 30 and be a doctor first" lol. But I really believe in you... Just finish high school. Then you can get a decent job if you ever need one. College isn't for everyone, but you can even do most of that online these days. Go for it!!

 

[Hope2be2013]

And good luck with your new baby!!! So exciting!!

 

[MissKeisha]

I'm like that right now, just want to leave but I'm gonna push myself to finish

 

[MissKeisha]

But keep trying ....

 

[teenmommy15]

I can't stand to be in school i always get distracted and find myself looking down at my bump and thinking of mg little girl
and how much stuff i could be preparing if i wasn't in school but then i think ifi didn't graduate she'll think its okay to drop out to and i don't want that so i push myself its hard work and it is stressful but so worth it

 

[xforuiholdonx]

In this day and age and in this country you have to graduate to be successful. You'll regret not graduating. My advice is to suck it up and push through, because when it's all said and done, that diploma is a MAJOR accomplishment!!! I know it's hard but it's something that has to be done for you, and your son!

 

[kareha]

I know how you feel. I'm a sophomore in college. I know going to college isn't the only way to be successful, but since my education is practically free why not utilize it. I'm just overwhelmed by the work. I have to sit in 2 classes twice a week for 4 hours each. Then I have an online class, and that's by far the hardest to keep up with. It's only an 8 week class, and I have 2 weeks left, but scheduling time for it is hard I missed one big assignment, but hopefully I'll be able to manage a C at least. I did get motivated by my baby girl and spent 9 hours at the library mostly working (and playing around.)

Try to find something to keep you going. I don't know if your baby will be born before your semester in school is over, but if possible, you could opt to take some college courses in the summer to help you graduate faster if you have the money. Or summer school. Good luck.

 

[Abigail8673]

Have you considered doing something else? I wasnt pregnant but i wanted to graduate early when i was in highschool. I did the American School of Correspondence. I did two years in one. it cost a little bit but they have a payment program and you can get into any college or university because you will still have transcripts.. its homeschooling... but its highschool... with out walls? it worked for me becuase i hated high school your there for 7/8 hours and half of that isnt even work, its all breaks, lunch and going from class to class, or waiting for the dumb kid in the back to finish a simple problem, its so stupid when you can just go- get it done and move on

 

[thecurlymama]

I'm doing a program called running start that is super awesome right now cause it's earning me high school and college credits, but it's just so f'cking difficult to focus- let alone make it to classes! I'm not really behind in any classes cause I've been keeping in touch with my teachers, but that doesn't make it any more motivating.

I'm going to look into a program for pregnant teens at a highschool in my area and just hope for the best... I'm determined to graduate because of various reasons- lots of them you guys stated above. I just feel overwhelmed.

 

[missmiylove]

School is not something you HAVE to enjoy in order to do. It's a responsibility ..like any other responsibilityyou just have to push through and try your best to get to the end. High school isn't like college.. I think its harder to finish high school after dropping out.with college you can just take a break.

Just make the right decision for your future and baby.