Having a bad day

[babybell]

Hi ladies
Haven't posted for a while and just feeling sorry for myself today and need to tell someone. I know you understand so that's why I came here.
I'm usually pretty good at putting on a brave face and carrying on but today I can't.
I have recently started Accupuncture as my problems seem to be with my lining in preparation for my next IVF. I was feeling really positive and secretly hoped that this would help and we might conceive naturally.
I spotted slightly yesterday and although I know it's not I can't help thinking what if it's implantation etc etc
Today heavier and I have to face facts that The witch has arrived for what seems the millionth time since we started ttc over 3.5 years ago.
Everyone around me is having beautiful babies and I am left wondering if I'll ever be a mum
Sorry for the sad post

 

[nikinabox]

I'm so sorry to hear that you're having a bad day, babybell. You're entitled to have your days of sadness. I read once that you're allowed to let it hit you, but only for a day or 2, then you pick yourself up and you try again. We all want this more than anything else in this world, so please remember, this WILL happen for you. Maybe not today, not tomorrow, but someday, it will, and I'm sure you'll be a wonderful mother.

 

[tulip1975]

I know how you feel. Every time I start spotting, I feel another wave of failure. And my AF is so much worse than it was 3 years ago that it feels like being repeatedly slapped in the face.

But then it's on to the next cycle with renewed hope.

Good luck to you! I hope you get your wish very soon!

 

[babybell]

Thanks ladies
I appreciate your messages and I know we are all in this together

Feeling a bit better today but my body is playing tricks on me and AF has disappeared. Only to rear her ugly head again shortly no doubt!!

Tulip good luck with your IVF - how are you feeling??
Hope your dreams come true soon xx

 

[tulip1975]

babybell - Thanks! I am still waiting to start my stims. I'm delayed a week because my body has not properly suppressed after taking Lupron. I have another scan tomorrow and may start my main meds on Saturday.

 

[babybell]

Its such a rollercoaster isnt it!
Hope your scan goes well today

I found the whole IVF process quite exciting - even though I didnt get the outcome I wanted I now know so much more about my body.

It feels good to be finally doing something. Hope you are feeling positive about it all. It plays havoc with your emotions though and feels like every day you have a new hurdle to get over.

Still no full blown AF for me although I am not officially due on until sunday. I havent had anymore spotting since Tuesday night.

 

[tulip1975]

I hope you get your BFP soon, babybell!